THE END

This is where/when it started.
Perhaps this is where/when it should end.

Ten years ago, tonight, your actions changed our relationship and you changed my life forever.  You opened my mind to something that I had never even imagined.  Or, perhaps, you awoke something in me that I had never realized.

But ten years later, tonight, perhaps it is time for me to truly move on.

Perhaps you left me physically, but you have never left my mind and heart.  A part of you will always be with me and you will always have a special place in my heart.  You're the reason I'm the person I am today.

I love you...that will never change...but perhaps that love needs to change.

Some day...we shall meet again.

Invisible Wishes

For the first time in a long while, I did not send out a Christmas card.  The mental and emotional struggle never came to a conclusion before it was too late.  As always.  Perhaps, that's for the best.

I bought a card, but never wrote it.  A part of me knows this is no longer appropriate for many reasons.  The card was not right.  My words would be wrong also.  A part of me knows I still wanted to.  But in the end, I did not.

Merry Christmas, my dear friend.  Perhaps some things have changed, but some things will never change.  You will always have a special place in my heart, in some way or form,

The Last Step

I knew this was coming.  But I did not expect it to come so fast.

To be put on the spot in the middle of the night when I was starting to doze off was not exactly what I had in mind.  Writing is good, but perhaps not for this.  Or maybe it's best that it happened this way.

For the first time in a long long time, I threw a lot of things out there.

For the first time in a long long time, I was getting the right responses.

Something was right.

I have my fears.  Nobody should have to face the darkness.

But everything I said was refuted.  No was not an acceptable answer.

Mentally, no was the correct answer.
Emotionally, yes was the correct answer.

All of a sudden, everything has been put into question.

Is this a step I should be taking?

Or..maybe it's too late.

Hints

What in the world have I just done?

It seems that my intention of simply clearing some numbers and reconnecting in a real way turned into something else.

I see you.
I hear you.
I know what you're getting at.

But I don't know if I can do it.

Don't get too close.
I don't want to have to push you away.

Circles

Carefully treading on dangerous grounds...

Am I reading this right?

What the hell is going on?