Sitting in class tonight, it suddenly occurred to me that it's been a year. It's been a whole entire year since I last saw you.
It would have been tonight that I last saw you. I had cried while on the phone with you. Although you came, my silence pushed you away and you simply dropped me off. I was angry, but even more hurt that you would do that. I did not say goodbye and we did not hug as we normally do. And for the first time that night, I deliberately didn't answer your calls. Little did I know that that would be the last time I ever saw you.
It would have been this past weekend that I last visited you. Like every other time, time was limited, but for many reasons I remember that day very clearly. We went to the mall together, and actually went into the stores to look at clothes...something that neither of us like to do. We shared an ice cream, and you complained that I ate so little.
Those were the sweet little things. But most of all, I remember the feeling of falling asleep in your arms. It was then that I realized how amazing it feels to be sleeping next to a warm body, next to someone you love. I wrapped my arms around you and snuggled in close. You asked me what was wrong, but I didn't give you an answer. What I really wanted to say was "I love you."
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