Recap

Been back to school for two months.

Very different people.

Very different environment.

Two months...

but there seems to be a few things that make me uneasy...

(1) M's curiosity in my love life.

People that have known me for a long time will never ask about these things, and I don't talk about it because (1) my love life has mostly been nonexistent and (2) it's not something everyone will accept. It seems that a comment I made before has caused M to be overly interested in my past.

(2) Some people's physical contact.

For some reason there seems to be people around me that are overly physical in their expression of friendship. Or maybe it's just me being a little overly sensitive about it. Regardless...it's kinda awkward.

(3) Interaction with a certain person.

For the last two months there has been a person that I have refrained from interacting with. Why? Because she looks so much like X. omg.

And of course....there is the continuation of that endless workload...which also makes me uneasy...

So...my average weekday is supposed to be...

6 hours of class

12 hours of study/work (since they recommend 2 hours per hour of class)

2+ hours of commuting

2 hours for meals

...leaving me 2 hours to sleep.

Lovely.

走地菇

http://hk.f1.page.auctions.yahoo.com/hk/show/bid_hist?aID=1119739867

omg...$4550 HKD!!!

that's like $650 CAD!!!

crazy!

it's great to see that hocc's products are in such high demand...

but that also means I have zero chance of ever getting any of these exclusive products.

=P

Where's my haven?

Extremely exhausted......

The classes, assignments, test and events are just nonstop. I don't know how much longer I can do this.

Wednesday was in class and at events 13 hours straight, nonstop.
Thursday was assignment night...until 4am.
Friday required me to "sell" myself to recruiters from the major firms.

This is really tiring.....

A few years ago there was one time when I felt really really tired, physically, emotionally and mentally. I skipped my morning obligations and went to X's house for the morning. When I got a chance to hug X, I just completely let go and let all my 'weight' fall onto X. That was the first time I really 'let go' with someone, and it was great to know that someone is there to 'hold you up'. After that, we just sat on the sofa together and fell asleep on each other's shoulders. That was definitely one of the most relaxing moments of my life.

If only I could do that again now....

I'm exhausted, but there's no place I can go to relax, and there's nobody around to help me bear all the 'weight'.

*sigh*

I miss you...

Wedding #3

Yesterday was the third wedding I've been to in the last two years. And there were many more that I knew of.

Three years ago, someone came back from a wedding and said to me that she wanted to give me a ring.

Three years ago, someone came back from a wedding and said to me that she was sad because she could never give me the same kind of recognition.

Being at the wedding yesterday made me think so much......

*sigh*

If it all happened today, would she still think the same thing?
If things were different, would she......?

Another week in hell...

This week has been another week in hell for way to many reasons...

Monday: (1) Broke my 7-year good driving record (2) Messed up a midterm (3) Gave a bad impression to a potential employer

Tuesday: (1) Handed in a sloppy assignment (2) Totally didn't pay attention to macro

Wednesday: (1) Didn't pay attentiont to macro again (2) Gave a controversial presentation (3) Probably let down a friend

Thursday: (1) Another stupid argument (2) Blamed for something I didn't do

Friday: (1) A sh*t load of housekeeping things to take care of.

And next week isn't going to get any better...

*sigh*

My Nonexistent Holiday

Very tired this week, even though it was my week off...

Monday - work on case for the whole day

Tuesday - work on another case for the whole day

Wednesday - went downtown for lunch

Thursday - yet another case meeting, and then dinner with R

Friday - endless number of errands, endless typing for assignment

All I really wanted was a day to stay home and do nothing, but it never happened.

Tomorrow is work and bbq.

Sunday is workshop.

Meaning I have to somehow find time to finish the assignment, do my part of the case and study some ten chapters for the midterm on Monday.

I've been hiding today, despite the fact that there are at least two people searching for me. Just don't feel like talking to anyone about anything.

It's just one of those days when the extreme introvert in me takes over...

Leave me alone.

Y&F

Friday night about ten of us went out to the Y&F area for Korean food. After a whole month of school, this was our first time going out together and it worked out pretty well, considering we had people from all over the city. Of course, it worked out to my advantage, since we went in the direction which was going towards home for me. Most of the other people had make the 45min drive back out to the campus area afterwards.

It was fun and all, I guess. But as I drove down that street that night, a lot of things came to mind...

There was a time that X said she wanted to have authentic Korean food, and she specifically wanted to go to the Y&F area, but we never had the chance to go...

There was a rainy day when we took the subway together and I drove her home from this area...

The irony....is that I went back to this area again yesterday.

When I wanted to go, there was never the chance. When it haunts me now, I end up going there twice in three days.

*sigh*

Will there be a chance?

If I invited you, would you come?

*sigh*

哭了...

今日特然要去 STC...再一次行同一條路線...

係車到求其攞咗隻CD黎聽...點知...當我經過某地方嘅時候...竟然響起 shampoo。

一路而來都覺得 shampoo 係有一種好 sweet 嘅感覺。每次聽都會令我諗起一D開心嘅片段﹐因為歌詞入面講嘅野真係係我身上發生過。

但係...今日...呢首歌...竟然令我喊咗出黎。

='(

或者...係因為一個月前自己同自己講過嘅野...
或者...係因為呢幾日聽咗好多次舊約...

或者...係因為......

='(

舊約

呢幾日聽咗首歌好多好多次...
有好多感覺...
有好多野諗...

唔知點解...
hocc 每一次有新歌﹐好似都會講出咗我心入面嘅一D野...

勞斯.萊斯...
圓滿...
木紋...
and more...

每一次都係出現得好合時﹐好諷刺...

舊約...亦都唔禮外...