Take Off

Every day on the way to and from campus, I pass by the airport. And every time, there is always a plane taking off, making its way up into the sky.

I always wonder where the plane is heading for. Who is on that plane? Where are they going? Why are they going there? What are their plans?

I love traveling. I love going places. I love seeing the nature and the history of the places I go to. Unfortunately, being the poor student that I am, it's just not possible to go anywhere these days. Perhaps in a few years.

Where do I want to go? Honestly, I don't have a "dream destination". At the top of the list is (1) HK, to visit family; and (2) UK, for reasons I should not have. But other than that, it really doesn't matter where I go.

For the last few years, I've always had the urge to run away from everyone and everything in my life. To a certain point, I want to break all ties with everyone ( including family) I know and everything that I do and move to a foreign place and start over.

If I had the money, perhaps I really would have done this three years ago.

I know it's very irresponsible and cowardly, because it's like I'm trying to avoid all the conflict in my life. But it's been three years, I'm tired. I really have no energy to keep at this indefinitely.

I need change. I need space. I need freedom.

All I want...is to live my life the way I choose.

Is that too much to ask for?