While talking to R today, she mentioned that she and S had gone to look at the condos nearby......
When I heard that, that heavy feeling came over me again......
I feel stupid. R and S have been happily together for 6 years now. And in all this time, what's happened in my life?
What have I been putting myself through these few years while the rest of the world moves along happily in life with their significant other? And in the end, after all this craziness, what will I gain or what will I achieve? In fact, where the hell am I trying to go? Why am I "wasting" my time on something that I will never get?
I don't know.
Because it felt right.
Because nothing ever felt so natural.
Because for once in my life, I felt sure about what I wanted.
But it's all meaningless to the rest of the world.
Because I'll always be "wrong".
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