30 Minutes

This afternoon I spent 30 minutes picking out a card. It was the hardest thing to do, because I couldn't find one that said just the right things. Friend is not enough. Someone special doesn't quite capture it. And romance is too much.

Right now, I just spent 30 minutes thinking about what to write in the card. And still haven't written anything. What can I, or should I, write that has enough depth and meaning to show that I care, but doesn't go too far?

The one and only time I was able to give X a card, she later told me she was disappointed. Because what I wrote didn't reflect the extent of our relationship. I felt really bad about it.

So......what am I supposed to write now?

It's stupid that I'm doing this. I know. Maybe she'll never get it. Maybe she'll never read it. Maybe she'll just throw it out. Maybe I'm causing more harm than anything. I'm not sure.

But I'll regret it if I don't.