Spinning...

It seems my mind is going crazy again. I'm thinking a million things and not getting anywhere. I've heard so many depressing stories from so many people lately that I'm not so sure about my original plans anymore. It's already the 7th. I need to make a plan. What to do? Should I really take a risk and try to get X to come out and see me?

To add to my "pressing" situation, the things that happened today have just messed with my mind and heart even more...

While writing the exam this morning, I looked out the window and it was snowing. *sigh* The first snow. There's something strangely depressing about it. And again, my mind was just flooded with thoughts. (There goes my MIS mark...) Then on the way home, there was also a bit of snow. Driving in the dark, the first thing that came to mind......"star wars".

MM was telling me how MS was teaching her to drive. It turns out that MS drives a manual car. And MM started telling me about trying to drive that manual car. And again, my mind is filled with memories again.

The "funniest" part of the day was even more strange. For whatever reason, S said that I seemed to be happier lately. And the way she said it, I knew she was implying thinks I'm seeing/dating someone. OMG. WTF??? =_=''

*SIGH*

Winter...

I miss having X drive me around and hearing her tell me to drive carefully and not to speed. I miss sitting around at her house, drinking that perfect cup of hot tea that she makes for me. I miss lying on her sofa, in her arms, watching the snow fall. I miss the long long hugs......

='(

F**k.