Something very small and maybe unimportant that happened today made me think......
Sometimes, I really wonder if I've got my priorities all mixed up.
Family.
Friends.
Love.
School.
Volunteer.
Work.
What's most important? What do you do when you have to pick one over the other? How do they all fit together?
At some point I thought I knew and had a very clear picture in my head.
At some point, I hated myself for caring too much about one and not the other(s) in the past.
At some point, I realized that when things happen, it isn't as clear cut as what I thought it would be.
Recently, I had a conversation with someone about finding balance. I'd say at this point there is some sort of balance in my life, but some components are still missing and the priorities are still muddled.
These days...I'm just not sure what I believe anymore.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
3/28
Sometimes I really hate how I know so much....
If I'm not mistaken, X would have had dinner with her doc friend tonight.
Unless...of course....there's someone else.....
Yes....I can't help being (slightly) jealous.
If I'm not mistaken, X would have had dinner with her doc friend tonight.
Unless...of course....there's someone else.....
Yes....I can't help being (slightly) jealous.
To come...
有時聽到家人講嘅野﹐我就知道我將來會遇到好多好多問題。
好無奈。
Note to self:
After graduating, find a job in another city.
好無奈。
Note to self:
After graduating, find a job in another city.
Just a little longer......
Yesterday I came across the lyrics to a new song that will be in Chet Lam's next CD, "Back to the Stars". Not sure what the song will sound like. But for now, the lyrics are good enough.....
I remember telling you that one of the most painful things about being with you was having to count down the time until I had to go. It was always slightly depressing watching the minutes go by, knowing that there would be a moment when I'd have to give you one last hug before leaving. There was never enough time. And I could never get tired of being with you.
To you.....
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Just a Little Longer
You speak of love in a language I don't know
It's the rhythm of your heart
Like the sirens in the dark
I can do nothing but come close
The colour of your hair
Spreads through the fields of gold
I see the light in your eyes
They bear the soul of a child
I feel safe just in your shadow
The warmth of your smile
Like the sun sinks in my skin
I throw kisses in the wind
Wanna lead you to my dreams
It's close enough to love
First the sound
Then the vision
After the touch
Finally the heart
Let it last a little longer
Hope it'd last a little longer
Just a little longer…
I knew you have to go
I knew I couldn't follow
But now my heart is full
There's nothing I can't get through
I will close my eyes every time I feel the wind blow
That's the way wind blows
That's the way love goes
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Happy birthday.
[................]
I remember telling you that one of the most painful things about being with you was having to count down the time until I had to go. It was always slightly depressing watching the minutes go by, knowing that there would be a moment when I'd have to give you one last hug before leaving. There was never enough time. And I could never get tired of being with you.
To you.....
------------------------------------------------------------------
Just a Little Longer
You speak of love in a language I don't know
It's the rhythm of your heart
Like the sirens in the dark
I can do nothing but come close
The colour of your hair
Spreads through the fields of gold
I see the light in your eyes
They bear the soul of a child
I feel safe just in your shadow
The warmth of your smile
Like the sun sinks in my skin
I throw kisses in the wind
Wanna lead you to my dreams
It's close enough to love
First the sound
Then the vision
After the touch
Finally the heart
Let it last a little longer
Hope it'd last a little longer
Just a little longer…
I knew you have to go
I knew I couldn't follow
But now my heart is full
There's nothing I can't get through
I will close my eyes every time I feel the wind blow
That's the way wind blows
That's the way love goes
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Happy birthday.
[................]
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Awards Night 2010
Long day at work. Did the tax return for a retired couple and they have sooooooooo many slips that I couldn't even staple the package together.
After work.....rushed downtown......to.......
The 2010 awards night for my program.
As I told many people before, I did not bring a guest. It turns out that most people did not bring a guest, but four of the six people in my group did. -_-'' Anyhow, it was great to see some of my buddies. Everybody's been busy with work that there's some people that I haven't seen for a while.
The actual ceremony was okay. No super long speeches. Thank goodness. By the end, everyone could tell LB was rushing to finish up because everyone was getting hungry. The food was good and there was an open bar. Everybody got a good share of food and drinks.
Being a by invitation only event, I was obviously there because I got some sort of award. As it turns out, my name appears in that program (up there) four times and I was up on stage four times. I guess I'm pretty satisfied with that. For me, the surprise was that my name had an * beside it......meaning I was/am in the top 10% of the class! That I did not expect. And in the end, working my a$$ off during the first six months of the program did somewhat pay off. Because when I opened one of the sealed envelopes, there was a cheque for $950! The only thing is that I'm not $950 richer because it's almost time to pay tuition again. =P
I'd say I enjoyed the night. Last night I was really hesitant about going, but now I'm glad I went.
And the strange and amusing things of the night........
A while ago I turned down the offer to share a house with a few friends, partly because there is one person that I don't want to live with. This person, M, is friendly and nice and all, but sometimes slightly annoying. Also, every now and then....she (who is married) puts her arm around my arm or my waist, or she holds my hand. This is (again) what happened tonight. -_-'' 講真...有時真係令我好唔自然。
Another odd person today was S. S is the girl that I suspect has a girlfriend. I don't know her too well because she's in the other class, but we chat and stuff I guess mainly because we are both part of the small canto-speaking group. When she saw me today, she came over and gave me a hug. That was strange enough. And during the ceremony, she offered to hold my cup of wine while I went up to accept my award. Just before I left my seat, she asked me if she could finish my drink. Thinking that she was joking, I said sure. And....when I got back....she really did finish my drink! WTF?!?! Sometimes I really want to ask her if she really does have a gf. Flip side....I wonder if she is suspicious about me.
Very strange night indeed.......
After the ceremony, I took a long walk on the streets before heading home....on Bloor, through the campus, etc. The weather was great and walking around downtown brought back a lot of memories......good and bad......
Overall, I enjoyed the night.....
There's just one thing that I wish could have happened.....as impossible as it may be......
Maybe next time.
After work.....rushed downtown......to.......
The 2010 awards night for my program.
As I told many people before, I did not bring a guest. It turns out that most people did not bring a guest, but four of the six people in my group did. -_-'' Anyhow, it was great to see some of my buddies. Everybody's been busy with work that there's some people that I haven't seen for a while.
The actual ceremony was okay. No super long speeches. Thank goodness. By the end, everyone could tell LB was rushing to finish up because everyone was getting hungry. The food was good and there was an open bar. Everybody got a good share of food and drinks.
Being a by invitation only event, I was obviously there because I got some sort of award. As it turns out, my name appears in that program (up there) four times and I was up on stage four times. I guess I'm pretty satisfied with that. For me, the surprise was that my name had an * beside it......meaning I was/am in the top 10% of the class! That I did not expect. And in the end, working my a$$ off during the first six months of the program did somewhat pay off. Because when I opened one of the sealed envelopes, there was a cheque for $950! The only thing is that I'm not $950 richer because it's almost time to pay tuition again. =P
I'd say I enjoyed the night. Last night I was really hesitant about going, but now I'm glad I went.
And the strange and amusing things of the night........
A while ago I turned down the offer to share a house with a few friends, partly because there is one person that I don't want to live with. This person, M, is friendly and nice and all, but sometimes slightly annoying. Also, every now and then....she (who is married) puts her arm around my arm or my waist, or she holds my hand. This is (again) what happened tonight. -_-'' 講真...有時真係令我好唔自然。
Another odd person today was S. S is the girl that I suspect has a girlfriend. I don't know her too well because she's in the other class, but we chat and stuff I guess mainly because we are both part of the small canto-speaking group. When she saw me today, she came over and gave me a hug. That was strange enough. And during the ceremony, she offered to hold my cup of wine while I went up to accept my award. Just before I left my seat, she asked me if she could finish my drink. Thinking that she was joking, I said sure. And....when I got back....she really did finish my drink! WTF?!?! Sometimes I really want to ask her if she really does have a gf. Flip side....I wonder if she is suspicious about me.
Very strange night indeed.......
After the ceremony, I took a long walk on the streets before heading home....on Bloor, through the campus, etc. The weather was great and walking around downtown brought back a lot of memories......good and bad......
Overall, I enjoyed the night.....
There's just one thing that I wish could have happened.....as impossible as it may be......
Maybe next time.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
!@#$%^&
This is a really shitty week.
I'm still not amused that I'm going to HK in August.
Tomorrow night is awards night.
Friday is dentist.
F**k.
Don't want any of this.
Don't know what else to say.
The highlight of my day........
Thanks to J for making me smile today, despite the crappy day! After all these years, J is still calling me DARLING!....hahaha. (But I thought I was Honey #1?!...when did that change?!) It's always good times with J, R and M. When can we have everyone together again?! See you in August, J!
I'm still not amused that I'm going to HK in August.
Tomorrow night is awards night.
Friday is dentist.
F**k.
Don't want any of this.
Don't know what else to say.
The highlight of my day........
Thanks to J for making me smile today, despite the crappy day! After all these years, J is still calling me DARLING!....hahaha. (But I thought I was Honey #1?!...when did that change?!) It's always good times with J, R and M. When can we have everyone together again?! See you in August, J!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Third year in a row....
So it's been decided......
August will be spent in HK.....but I'm not excited.
All I really want to do this summer is hang around in TO and do road trips and camping.
I guess...what I really want is to get away from my family.
That sounds really bad, but I am seriously getting really tired of playing this 'game'.
August will be spent in HK.....but I'm not excited.
All I really want to do this summer is hang around in TO and do road trips and camping.
I guess...what I really want is to get away from my family.
That sounds really bad, but I am seriously getting really tired of playing this 'game'.
Monday, March 22, 2010
3/21....for the 5th time....
March 21st.....and a Sunday......just the same as it was then.......
I can't decide if my mind is blank today or if there's so much going through my mind that I can't pinpoint anything. Just really out of it.
I told myself not to think today. But while driving with the music on with everyone else dozing off, a lot of things came to mind......
The monkey that's been "imprisoned"...
The phone that's been erased...
The watch that I can no longer have...
The keys that I lost the privilege to...
The ring...that I lost...
It never really does fade from my memory.....
What have I achieved in all this time? I don't know. But I've been trying to change the rules of the game. Whether or not things will work out in the end, I have no idea. Nor is this the right time to find out.
All I wanted to do today was have some time to myself. So much so that I shut off my phone last night and didn't turn it on at all today. Just don't feel like talking to anyone. I guess because I don't want people to notice that I'm in quiet and in a bad mood and start asking questions.
Unfortunately, I did not get any time alone today. Kept having to deal with people about the stuff they're doing and planning. Quite honestly, I started getting very irritated and despondent by the afternoon. But sometimes you just have to suck it up and pretend it's all good, because having certain people notice my moodiness on this day would be a really bad thing.
On top of all this crap.....I'm really starting to see another big problem developing in my life......sh*t.
(Side note: I know I probably piss some people off for missing calls on my cell, but that's the way it's gonna be, so live with it. I'm not someone that likes to be found 24/7. BUT...having said that, anyone that is moderately important to me should have my home number, so it shouldn't be a problem! If you don't have it and would like to have it, ask me!)
I can't decide if my mind is blank today or if there's so much going through my mind that I can't pinpoint anything. Just really out of it.
I told myself not to think today. But while driving with the music on with everyone else dozing off, a lot of things came to mind......
The monkey that's been "imprisoned"...
The phone that's been erased...
The watch that I can no longer have...
The keys that I lost the privilege to...
The ring...that I lost...
It never really does fade from my memory.....
What have I achieved in all this time? I don't know. But I've been trying to change the rules of the game. Whether or not things will work out in the end, I have no idea. Nor is this the right time to find out.
All I wanted to do today was have some time to myself. So much so that I shut off my phone last night and didn't turn it on at all today. Just don't feel like talking to anyone. I guess because I don't want people to notice that I'm in quiet and in a bad mood and start asking questions.
Unfortunately, I did not get any time alone today. Kept having to deal with people about the stuff they're doing and planning. Quite honestly, I started getting very irritated and despondent by the afternoon. But sometimes you just have to suck it up and pretend it's all good, because having certain people notice my moodiness on this day would be a really bad thing.
On top of all this crap.....I'm really starting to see another big problem developing in my life......sh*t.
(Side note: I know I probably piss some people off for missing calls on my cell, but that's the way it's gonna be, so live with it. I'm not someone that likes to be found 24/7. BUT...having said that, anyone that is moderately important to me should have my home number, so it shouldn't be a problem! If you don't have it and would like to have it, ask me!)
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Going down.....
I don't know if it was the conversations at work today, or the conversations at dinner tonight, or just the fact that it's coming to the end of March again, but a lot of things are going through my mind again.
E, M and T were all talking about moving and stuff today. Both E and T recently bought condos in the area near work. Somewhere in this conversation, S asked me if I planned to move out after graduating. Such a simple question, but for some reason I didn't have an answer. When you're in my position, this question is really a lot more complicated. Yes, I want to move out, because that's the only way to really live the way I want to. I guess compared to a lot of people around me I do have a lot of freedom right now. But honestly, sometimes I get really tired of all the additional responsibilities there are for living at home that refrain me from doing other things I'd rather be doing. But me moving out implies a lot of things which can create a lot of problems and situations. I don't know if I can (physically, mentally and emotionally) handle going through it all again.
At dinner, I found out that someone is getting married this summer. Congrats! But that means I have to go to a wedding, which is always a pain when I need to decide what to wear. !@#$% And of course, the talk of another wedding brings up all the dating and relationship questions around the table. For the Nth time, no I'm not dating anyone. Now f**k off. I really don't need to deal with all this, especially not at this time of the year when I'm already driving myself crazy.
It's past 12am.....
It's March 21......
3...21....
This date and everything about it just keeps floating in my head.....
I never want to go through it again.....
If only I really could be as unfeeling as some people perceive me to be. That would make my life a lot easier.
E, M and T were all talking about moving and stuff today. Both E and T recently bought condos in the area near work. Somewhere in this conversation, S asked me if I planned to move out after graduating. Such a simple question, but for some reason I didn't have an answer. When you're in my position, this question is really a lot more complicated. Yes, I want to move out, because that's the only way to really live the way I want to. I guess compared to a lot of people around me I do have a lot of freedom right now. But honestly, sometimes I get really tired of all the additional responsibilities there are for living at home that refrain me from doing other things I'd rather be doing. But me moving out implies a lot of things which can create a lot of problems and situations. I don't know if I can (physically, mentally and emotionally) handle going through it all again.
At dinner, I found out that someone is getting married this summer. Congrats! But that means I have to go to a wedding, which is always a pain when I need to decide what to wear. !@#$% And of course, the talk of another wedding brings up all the dating and relationship questions around the table. For the Nth time, no I'm not dating anyone. Now f**k off. I really don't need to deal with all this, especially not at this time of the year when I'm already driving myself crazy.
It's past 12am.....
It's March 21......
3...21....
This date and everything about it just keeps floating in my head.....
I never want to go through it again.....
If only I really could be as unfeeling as some people perceive me to be. That would make my life a lot easier.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
88 Keys
Spent 2 hours playing piano tonight, just because I have time on my hands.
I forgot that I have this score and that I used to know how to play this song....
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Deflated
Today marks the 2-month point of this work term, and I think the pressure is really starting to build.
For whatever reason, I seem to be more busy than any of the other students.....
In my hands.....all waiting to be done.....(probably some time soon....)....
3 year end files
3 personal tax returns
4 trust tax returns
.......while other people are just doing the personal returns.
Is this good or bad?
On top of that, I felt REALLY stupid today because I spent the whole day just trying to correct the file that I finished a while ago. I really don't know why it's taking me so long to do this. What am I missing?!?!
And I just found out today that when I sign off on the files I'm supposed to sign the SENIOR line. Senior?!?! Since when was/were I/we designated as seniors?!?!
Aside from work.......
I mailed out the card today. I sat there staring at it for the longest time trying to decide what to write. And of course, I was already regretting it five seconds after I threw it in the mailbox. Only wrote a few lines this time. I can never seem to find the words.......
BUT.....I threw in my 'business' card.....for what it's worth....
Thank goodness it was super busy at work today. Otherwise, I would have drove myself nuts for the rest of the afternoon thinking about what I wrote/did.
Tonight......made a mango cheesecake. I can't remember the last time I actually made something from beginning to end in the kitchen. But whatever. It wasn't very good. Nor did I get a chance to take a pic because someone else already cut it up. Damn.
Feeling tired and kinda down tonight.
It's March. And March sucks. My memory is playing games on me.......
For whatever reason, I seem to be more busy than any of the other students.....
In my hands.....all waiting to be done.....(probably some time soon....)....
3 year end files
3 personal tax returns
4 trust tax returns
.......while other people are just doing the personal returns.
Is this good or bad?
On top of that, I felt REALLY stupid today because I spent the whole day just trying to correct the file that I finished a while ago. I really don't know why it's taking me so long to do this. What am I missing?!?!
And I just found out today that when I sign off on the files I'm supposed to sign the SENIOR line. Senior?!?! Since when was/were I/we designated as seniors?!?!
Aside from work.......
I mailed out the card today. I sat there staring at it for the longest time trying to decide what to write. And of course, I was already regretting it five seconds after I threw it in the mailbox. Only wrote a few lines this time. I can never seem to find the words.......
BUT.....I threw in my 'business' card.....for what it's worth....
Thank goodness it was super busy at work today. Otherwise, I would have drove myself nuts for the rest of the afternoon thinking about what I wrote/did.
Tonight......made a mango cheesecake. I can't remember the last time I actually made something from beginning to end in the kitchen. But whatever. It wasn't very good. Nor did I get a chance to take a pic because someone else already cut it up. Damn.
Feeling tired and kinda down tonight.
It's March. And March sucks. My memory is playing games on me.......
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
3/15
Hm.......
Today....was interesting.....
Work....
I have yet to finish the B&C file, because it's driving me nuts. On top of that, I've been given another file which has a closer deadline. This is kinda odd, considering everyone else is doing tax and not getting files anymore. Aside from that, Mr C came to pull people to do mindless work. He saw I was working on one of his clients and said, "Oh you're doing XXX, I better not bug you! Is there any hope?" LOL
Lunch.....
Made a new friend! Or more accurately, I finally met this person in person. A little different from the person I had in mind based on chats and phone, but definitely a nice person. And for whatever reason, my impression is that this person is very capable and very smart.
School.....
The tentative summer schedule is out. So it looks like I only get four days off after the work term before hitting the books again. Another eight courses, but it looks like most weeks will be 4.5 days and not full 5. But there are TWO case comps within one month. That is gonna be a killer. I REALLY hope we can keep the teams we have now.
Other random things......
My laptop screen is going crazy again.
I forgot to do a lot of little things today.
I am still feeling quite speechless about some things.
It's already March 15th.......
What to do?!?!
Today....was interesting.....
Work....
I have yet to finish the B&C file, because it's driving me nuts. On top of that, I've been given another file which has a closer deadline. This is kinda odd, considering everyone else is doing tax and not getting files anymore. Aside from that, Mr C came to pull people to do mindless work. He saw I was working on one of his clients and said, "Oh you're doing XXX, I better not bug you! Is there any hope?" LOL
Lunch.....
Made a new friend! Or more accurately, I finally met this person in person. A little different from the person I had in mind based on chats and phone, but definitely a nice person. And for whatever reason, my impression is that this person is very capable and very smart.
School.....
The tentative summer schedule is out. So it looks like I only get four days off after the work term before hitting the books again. Another eight courses, but it looks like most weeks will be 4.5 days and not full 5. But there are TWO case comps within one month. That is gonna be a killer. I REALLY hope we can keep the teams we have now.
Other random things......
My laptop screen is going crazy again.
I forgot to do a lot of little things today.
I am still feeling quite speechless about some things.
It's already March 15th.......
What to do?!?!
Sunday, March 14, 2010
At your service...
At the end of a phone conversation yesterday, I told my friend, M, that I had to call my sister to help her figure out her school stuff....
M (jokingly) said she didn't like that, because she was jealous. Jealous because I'm always helping my sis and not helping her. I laughed it off, but in reality my mind was already way off somewhere else. There was a time when someone very seriously said she was jealous of my sister. It seemed kind of funny, but I knew what she meant by those words. Whether or not I redeemed myself afterward is another story.
M also said there seems to be a lot of people bothering and bugging me. I said no, but she said yes. She added that I like to be bothered, and that's one of the good things about me. WTF?! No. I don't particularly like being bothered. For the most part, I'm pretty patient when I deal with people. If I really do feel that you're bugging me, then you've REALLY gotten on my nerves and I will shut you out completely using whatever way. I think what M meant was that I'm willing to listen and help. (Because I'm usually the one that listens to her rants about the most random things.)
But to be honest.......it gets tiring.....
Whether it's some random person's transportation problems, or K's tuition problems or my folk's tech problems.......it's always me. Somehow, I end up spending a good deal of time doing stuff that really is none of my business, despite the fact that I can barely find enough time to deal with all my own sh*t.
Don't get me wrong. I'm grateful for all the people around me, and I really am willing to help if I can. But it's tiring.
The worst part is....sometimes you put your heart and soul into helping someone.....and in the end, you realize that everything you've done in the past means absolutely nothing to them....and get back-stabbed.
I'm not asking for anything in return, but the least you could give me is some respect.
M (jokingly) said she didn't like that, because she was jealous. Jealous because I'm always helping my sis and not helping her. I laughed it off, but in reality my mind was already way off somewhere else. There was a time when someone very seriously said she was jealous of my sister. It seemed kind of funny, but I knew what she meant by those words. Whether or not I redeemed myself afterward is another story.
M also said there seems to be a lot of people bothering and bugging me. I said no, but she said yes. She added that I like to be bothered, and that's one of the good things about me. WTF?! No. I don't particularly like being bothered. For the most part, I'm pretty patient when I deal with people. If I really do feel that you're bugging me, then you've REALLY gotten on my nerves and I will shut you out completely using whatever way. I think what M meant was that I'm willing to listen and help. (Because I'm usually the one that listens to her rants about the most random things.)
But to be honest.......it gets tiring.....
Whether it's some random person's transportation problems, or K's tuition problems or my folk's tech problems.......it's always me. Somehow, I end up spending a good deal of time doing stuff that really is none of my business, despite the fact that I can barely find enough time to deal with all my own sh*t.
Don't get me wrong. I'm grateful for all the people around me, and I really am willing to help if I can. But it's tiring.
The worst part is....sometimes you put your heart and soul into helping someone.....and in the end, you realize that everything you've done in the past means absolutely nothing to them....and get back-stabbed.
I'm not asking for anything in return, but the least you could give me is some respect.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Slipping and Climbing
Just saw the latest elementary school rankings today....and it was a little shocking....
SJM has scored 10/10 and ranked #1 in the past five years, but this year it's only 9.8/10 and #2. That's pretty disappointing considering the big advantage it has with the AP/PACE class. (But then again, AP/PACE is,sadly, not what it used to be in my days.)
Flip side....
St Eds had an average ranking of #152 in the past five years, but this year ranks #11! That's an amazing improvement considering (as far as I know) there were no new AP/PACE students after me!
lol....why do I care about elementary schools?!?! I guess there's still a little bit of school spirit in me!
SJM has scored 10/10 and ranked #1 in the past five years, but this year it's only 9.8/10 and #2. That's pretty disappointing considering the big advantage it has with the AP/PACE class. (But then again, AP/PACE is,sadly, not what it used to be in my days.)
Flip side....
St Eds had an average ranking of #152 in the past five years, but this year ranks #11! That's an amazing improvement considering (as far as I know) there were no new AP/PACE students after me!
lol....why do I care about elementary schools?!?! I guess there's still a little bit of school spirit in me!
Friday, March 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Another circle....
唔該...有野嘅就直接講...唔好成日係到玩暗示﹗
I know what you're hinting at. I'm not stupid.
Give me a break! After all this time, you still want to come after me?!
When are you going to wake up and face the reality?
I know what you're hinting at. I'm not stupid.
Give me a break! After all this time, you still want to come after me?!
When are you going to wake up and face the reality?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
03/09
Random (or not so random) things of the day.....
Went to the orthodontist appointment this morning. I don't want to care anymore. Forget all the reasoning. I decided to just go with this because I already got the appointment and it was too late to cancel. Now I just need to think of an explanation for my boss. -_-''
Seeing as I don't want to be missing teeth for awards night, I changed my other appointment to the 26th. But this has now completely thrown off everything I had been planning for that week/weekend. Now I don't know what to do, because all the free days left don't seem to work. I don't know how much I've got going for or against me. I really want to do this, but I need to be sure that I can do it 'safely'.
Took a shorter lunch and stayed late to make up for my late start today. Judging from the comments I've received from people, it seems I've been 'lucky' enough to have gotten a client that is known to be a disaster. This company's books are quite a mess and they haven't given us the right info. This is gonna be fun.....
I am now officially a CA student. The confirmation letter came in the mail and I can now log on to the website. Next year this time, I should (hopefully) be done the CKE and on my way to the last term of my program. But still I'm thinking.....is having an extra six letters after my name worth all this time, effort and money?
I have yet to reply to the e-mail from a new student in the 2012 class. I hope he doesn't mind. (He took four days to reply to my e-mail....lol)
I have yet to figure out the tax problem for the training session. The first paragraph is something about inheriting a US property and using it as a rental unit. That's already completely over my head. Time to hit the books!
*sigh*.......what to do???
Went to the orthodontist appointment this morning. I don't want to care anymore. Forget all the reasoning. I decided to just go with this because I already got the appointment and it was too late to cancel. Now I just need to think of an explanation for my boss. -_-''
Seeing as I don't want to be missing teeth for awards night, I changed my other appointment to the 26th. But this has now completely thrown off everything I had been planning for that week/weekend. Now I don't know what to do, because all the free days left don't seem to work. I don't know how much I've got going for or against me. I really want to do this, but I need to be sure that I can do it 'safely'.
Took a shorter lunch and stayed late to make up for my late start today. Judging from the comments I've received from people, it seems I've been 'lucky' enough to have gotten a client that is known to be a disaster. This company's books are quite a mess and they haven't given us the right info. This is gonna be fun.....
I am now officially a CA student. The confirmation letter came in the mail and I can now log on to the website. Next year this time, I should (hopefully) be done the CKE and on my way to the last term of my program. But still I'm thinking.....is having an extra six letters after my name worth all this time, effort and money?
I have yet to reply to the e-mail from a new student in the 2012 class. I hope he doesn't mind. (He took four days to reply to my e-mail....lol)
I have yet to figure out the tax problem for the training session. The first paragraph is something about inheriting a US property and using it as a rental unit. That's already completely over my head. Time to hit the books!
*sigh*.......what to do???
Monday, March 8, 2010
Monday Surprise
First thing that happens on my Monday morning......
There is a notice on my desk at work about a training session on Saturday.
-_-''
I haven't even started working and you tell me this is gonna be an extra long week. What a way to start the week off.
Damn.
There is a notice on my desk at work about a training session on Saturday.
-_-''
I haven't even started working and you tell me this is gonna be an extra long week. What a way to start the week off.
Damn.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Ruined
What I thought was going to be a pretty good day did not turn out as I had hoped.....
The swim was pretty good today. The water was colder than usual, but still okay. I realized that my endurance has improved over the couple of weeks, but compared to a lot of people I still really suck. The suggestions I've been getting seem to be contradicting. I still need time to try it out and see what works best. But overall, today was a good swim.
Just before noon we went to church to pick up some relatives for lunch. Stepping into that building made me think of what happened when I went to mass with my folks a few weeks ago. Not a good feeling. From a religion perspective, I know a million people will say I'm doing bad things, but I'd say they're getting it all wrong. I'm far from being religious. Spiritual at best. But I believe, and I wear a cross (most of the time).
I was really looking forward to the drive into Waterloo today with the awesome weather. Perfect for driving. I was expecting I could enjoy the weather and some good music on the long drive. But...it was totally ruined by the fact that we ended up having three seniors coming with us. So.....no music....plus noisy boring conversations in the background. I, literally, almost fell asleep.
Dinner with the relatives turned out amazingly bad, for me at least. I had no appetite and did not find the food appealing at all. Half way through I was dying to leave and incredibly sleepy.
The one good thing.....I bought a picture frame for my room! I saw it before, and today I decided to buy it. Now to find some nice pics!
And.....tomorrow is another day. The audit is mostly done. Time to write it up. And I still need to finish up that other file that I was fixing up. Tax work is starting. It's gonna get busy.
The swim was pretty good today. The water was colder than usual, but still okay. I realized that my endurance has improved over the couple of weeks, but compared to a lot of people I still really suck. The suggestions I've been getting seem to be contradicting. I still need time to try it out and see what works best. But overall, today was a good swim.
Just before noon we went to church to pick up some relatives for lunch. Stepping into that building made me think of what happened when I went to mass with my folks a few weeks ago. Not a good feeling. From a religion perspective, I know a million people will say I'm doing bad things, but I'd say they're getting it all wrong. I'm far from being religious. Spiritual at best. But I believe, and I wear a cross (most of the time).
I was really looking forward to the drive into Waterloo today with the awesome weather. Perfect for driving. I was expecting I could enjoy the weather and some good music on the long drive. But...it was totally ruined by the fact that we ended up having three seniors coming with us. So.....no music....plus noisy boring conversations in the background. I, literally, almost fell asleep.
Dinner with the relatives turned out amazingly bad, for me at least. I had no appetite and did not find the food appealing at all. Half way through I was dying to leave and incredibly sleepy.
The one good thing.....I bought a picture frame for my room! I saw it before, and today I decided to buy it. Now to find some nice pics!
And.....tomorrow is another day. The audit is mostly done. Time to write it up. And I still need to finish up that other file that I was fixing up. Tax work is starting. It's gonna get busy.
Friday, March 5, 2010
That voice...
The (stupid and "mo liu") highlight of my day.......
There's this Australian girl at the client's office that has a really attractive voice! Kinda shy, laid back, raspy and Australian accent.
LOL
=P
I guess I'm just very sensitive to people's voices these days because it reminds me of X's British accent. I never really heard it that much, because she usually intentionally suppressed it. But hearing her talk with the accent always made me smile....because that usually meant she was happy......
Here I go again.....
It's March......I need to decide what I'm gonna do....if anything......
There's this Australian girl at the client's office that has a really attractive voice! Kinda shy, laid back, raspy and Australian accent.
LOL
=P
I guess I'm just very sensitive to people's voices these days because it reminds me of X's British accent. I never really heard it that much, because she usually intentionally suppressed it. But hearing her talk with the accent always made me smile....because that usually meant she was happy......
Here I go again.....
It's March......I need to decide what I'm gonna do....if anything......
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Stepping it up...
So this week I have been put on an audit job. It was pretty surprising when my manager told me this on Monday, because normally they don't put us on audits until the second work term. And here I am, one month into this, and being put on an audit. (I hope that's a good sign!)
Despite the fact that my group won the audit contest a few months back, and I managed an A in the audit course, the audit theory doesn't make too much sense to me. It just seems so tedious and redundant and obvious to me that I don't get what the point is.
Regardless, the past two days have been interesting. And I find the picture quite amusing......
Little old me....who has had less than six months of classes in accounting/management and spent one month working on files......is sitting there chatting with the financial administrator and VP of the client company......questioning their work and telling them they're wrong!
Me: Why is this amount off by $X?
VP: Oh...it was probably just an input error.
Me: Oh....(wtf...how do you mis-type $5130.73 for $5793.18?!?!....the keys aren't even close!)
And this is the reason I'm half glad that I never got into a big4 firms. Chatting with the client at this point in time is just completely out of the question with the bigger firms. In fact, with big4, you'd never even get to do a file from beginning to end. And so far, I think I've already done like ten all on my own. (Yes...only HALF glad....although I should be thankful because I know I've been a lot luckier than other people this year.)
Back to the client again tomorrow. If all goes as planned, we should finish the field work by the end of tomorrow. I'm sure the client has had enough of us already.
For some reason these two days have really taken a toll on me. I'm already extremely tired by lunch time, and these two nights I can barely stay awake.
Time to hit the pillow......
Despite the fact that my group won the audit contest a few months back, and I managed an A in the audit course, the audit theory doesn't make too much sense to me. It just seems so tedious and redundant and obvious to me that I don't get what the point is.
Regardless, the past two days have been interesting. And I find the picture quite amusing......
Little old me....who has had less than six months of classes in accounting/management and spent one month working on files......is sitting there chatting with the financial administrator and VP of the client company......questioning their work and telling them they're wrong!
Me: Why is this amount off by $X?
VP: Oh...it was probably just an input error.
Me: Oh....(wtf...how do you mis-type $5130.73 for $5793.18?!?!....the keys aren't even close!)
And this is the reason I'm half glad that I never got into a big4 firms. Chatting with the client at this point in time is just completely out of the question with the bigger firms. In fact, with big4, you'd never even get to do a file from beginning to end. And so far, I think I've already done like ten all on my own. (Yes...only HALF glad....although I should be thankful because I know I've been a lot luckier than other people this year.)
Back to the client again tomorrow. If all goes as planned, we should finish the field work by the end of tomorrow. I'm sure the client has had enough of us already.
For some reason these two days have really taken a toll on me. I'm already extremely tired by lunch time, and these two nights I can barely stay awake.
Time to hit the pillow......
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Depression is good...?!
An interesting article about depression.......
http://lifehacker.com/5483797/the-evolutionary-reason-for-depression
.....with links to the original New York Times article.
This (and the original article) was an interesting read, considering I find myself down more than up these days.
The idea that depression is good because it makes people focus their attention to the critical issues makes sense to me. But having done neuro research myself, I'd say there really isn't any substantial evidence to make this claim. At least not from the details they've given here. It'd be interesting to see the actual paper when it comes out.
http://lifehacker.com/5483797/the-evolutionary-reason-for-depression
.....with links to the original New York Times article.
This (and the original article) was an interesting read, considering I find myself down more than up these days.
The idea that depression is good because it makes people focus their attention to the critical issues makes sense to me. But having done neuro research myself, I'd say there really isn't any substantial evidence to make this claim. At least not from the details they've given here. It'd be interesting to see the actual paper when it comes out.
Another 24 hours...
Things and thoughts from the last 24 hours or so......
I had a weird dream last night. Somebody got shot. It was a guy, but I didn't see his face. For whatever reason I was tending to his wound, waiting for 911 to arrive. The strange thing is I was perfectly calm doing all this. Okay...I guess this isn't completely outrageous considering my history, but it still seemed really weird and freaky. What does it all mean?!?!
Finished another file today. The manager asked if I had questions, and I said no. That must have seemed weird to him considering I'm one of the newbies. I'm starting to wonder if I've missed something because this gigantic file seemed too easy and too good to be true. Anyhow, I did what I think I need to do.
The highlight of my day...(however stupid it may be)....is that I was told I get to work on an audit tomorrow! AND....it's a healthcare related company! So it's not that exciting, but I guess it kind of puts things into perspective for me. After all, one of my initial reasons for going into this program is to do the business x science work. This is accounting x healthcare.....which is ultimately where I want to get to.
I hate it when I spend my time and energy caring for other people and they give me sh*t for saying something that is true but they don't want to hear. I am doing you something and you're giving me crap?! It might not be what you want to here, but face it, because that's the reality.
I RSVP-ed to our program's award night. Again, I read on it that we can bring one guest. I don't intend to invite anyone, except maybe if there's people in our class that want to go but don't have invitation. But it suddenly occurred to me that I've probably already put myself in a very awkward position. If I really did bring a guest, it would be a female friend. I'm willing to bet that if I actually did that, there would be at least one person who would think that I'm bringing my gf. LOL!
I've become highly addicted to green tea lattes! I've tried it at Second Cup and Starbucks and Timothy's. And now all other coffee and tea doesn't taste good anymore. But....this morning I stopped for a moment and wondered.......Do you really like the taste of it? Or am I trying to retain a certain memory or feeling?
Last, but not least......it's March......what to do?
I had a weird dream last night. Somebody got shot. It was a guy, but I didn't see his face. For whatever reason I was tending to his wound, waiting for 911 to arrive. The strange thing is I was perfectly calm doing all this. Okay...I guess this isn't completely outrageous considering my history, but it still seemed really weird and freaky. What does it all mean?!?!
Finished another file today. The manager asked if I had questions, and I said no. That must have seemed weird to him considering I'm one of the newbies. I'm starting to wonder if I've missed something because this gigantic file seemed too easy and too good to be true. Anyhow, I did what I think I need to do.
The highlight of my day...(however stupid it may be)....is that I was told I get to work on an audit tomorrow! AND....it's a healthcare related company! So it's not that exciting, but I guess it kind of puts things into perspective for me. After all, one of my initial reasons for going into this program is to do the business x science work. This is accounting x healthcare.....which is ultimately where I want to get to.
I hate it when I spend my time and energy caring for other people and they give me sh*t for saying something that is true but they don't want to hear. I am doing you something and you're giving me crap?! It might not be what you want to here, but face it, because that's the reality.
I RSVP-ed to our program's award night. Again, I read on it that we can bring one guest. I don't intend to invite anyone, except maybe if there's people in our class that want to go but don't have invitation. But it suddenly occurred to me that I've probably already put myself in a very awkward position. If I really did bring a guest, it would be a female friend. I'm willing to bet that if I actually did that, there would be at least one person who would think that I'm bringing my gf. LOL!
I've become highly addicted to green tea lattes! I've tried it at Second Cup and Starbucks and Timothy's. And now all other coffee and tea doesn't taste good anymore. But....this morning I stopped for a moment and wondered.......Do you really like the taste of it? Or am I trying to retain a certain memory or feeling?
Last, but not least......it's March......what to do?
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