Crunch time begins...

Took a look at my calendar today...

And realized I have A LOT of work to do in the next month.

There is about two (final) exams per week, plus all the assignments and presentations.

Awesome. -_-''

First things first...

Next week...

Financial management exam
Strategic management exam
Business law assignment

All the blows I've taken lately have really lowered my confidence level with all this. I can't seem to do well in anything this term. Really need to do a lot better in what's left if I want to bring my marks back up. How am I supposed to do this?!

And all the while, there are a million other things on my mind...

*sigh*

70s and 80s

While driving today, I listened to an episode of RTHK's We Are Family. This particular episode was from a while back, but the topic was quite interesting. The focus was on middle-aged women (中女) in the circle. Specifically, they interviewed a "middle-aged" TB.

Lots of interesting things...

Apparently, in HK, for girls, "middle-aged" is considered 26+. -_-''

There is some tendency for single women in their 40s to consider same-sex partners.

Girls are generally rather fluid in terms of their orientation.

But what caught my attention the most was none of this. It was what the guest said about her own experience.

The TB that was interviewed had recently broke up with her gf of one year. She said that she called it off because of communication problems. And these communication problems arose from the age difference. The TB was born in the 70s and was 30+ years old. Her gf was born in the 80s and was 20+ years old. The problem wasn't that they didn't communicate well with each other, but that their experiences were so different that the younger gf could not really understand what the TB was/is going through.

Hearing that kind of made me sad......

*sigh*

This makes me wonder if X had the same thoughts. Did she always find that I didn't understand what she was thinking or going through? The age gap and timing is pretty similar. A 70s person with a 80s person. And the truth is, there are some things that she said to me then that I did not fully understand or appreciate until recently. As much as I'd like to believe that we understood each other, hearing this interview caused me to start doubting that. Maybe I really didn't understand at all?

='(

Second Best

So after three torturing days of endless work and a weekend of waiting, we finally got the results today...

Two teams tied for third place. Just like last year. I'm really starting to think that they do this on purpose just so more people feel better.

My team was second place. Not bad, I guess. But it would have meant a lot to me and M if we could have won. Oh well.

And in first place...was M's bf's team.

Congrats, everyone.

(I wonder what the results would have been like if we could have kept our old teams...)

Round 2 Day 3

Case comp is DONE!

The preparation process today was quite frustrating. There were some arguments at some point. It got pretty dramatic, to the point that one person was so pissed off that he stormed out of the room. What made it more intense was that this happened just an hour before our presentation time, and we didn't manage to do a full run through until almost 30 minutes before our time. Yikes.

The presentation went pretty smoothly. I think I presented my part fairly well. "Lucky" for me, there was a major mistake on one of the slides I was presenting. When I was looking at it, it kind of threw me off. But in the end, it turned out okay.

Surprisingly, the judges didn't ask us a lot of questions. Seeing as we were the last group to present, we were expecting that they'd have lots of questions for us. But there wasn't. This can only mean two things. Either what we presented was really good and already covered everything. (I highly doubt that!) Or what we presented was total BS and they didn't think it was worth asking questions. But regardless, I think we handled the Q&A session much better than last time. Although T still kept jumping in, the rest of us all answered something.

Can't wait to get the results on Monday!

Fingers crossed that I can be part of the winning team for the second time!

Round 2 Day 2

The plan today was to meet at 8:30am. I got there at 8:40am, thinking that I was late. Knocked on the door of our room, and there was no answer. How is it that I live the furtherest away, had to fight traffic, slept the least, and still got there earlier than everyone else?! -_-''

The whole day was a big rush. A rush to finalize the points. A rush to put a presentation together. A rush to figure out what the hell we were doing. The deadline was 4pm. We were, literally, putting stuff together until 3:56pm. As usual, it was quite funny to watch all 60 people in our class/program scrambling to get stuff printed and sent at the last minute! lol

After submitting everything, we all went out for food. Nobody had time for food today, so we pooled together with all the other groups and went out for lunch/dinner. Probably some 30 people?!

The rest of the night was spent practicing the presentation. Not very productive night, considering we didn't even run through the presentation once. There were too many things to think about before we could actually put together something decent. But seeing as our assigned presentation time isn't until 2:30pm tomorrow, we called it a night at 10:30pm.

As of now, I am still highly confused as to what the heck is in our presentation. I understand the parts that I worked on and nothing more. Hopefully, I can figure all that out some time soon!

To put things in perspective, this case comp requires us to figure out a solution for a business situation based on everything we've learned in every course and then presenting the results to a group of judges.  Day 1 we get the case.  Day 2 we submit everything at 4pm.  Day 3 is presentations.

This requires.....3 days, 6 people/brains, 6 laptops, 3 textbooks, one blackboard, one white board.....and a whole lot of caffeine and junk food!

The battlefield.....

Round 2 Day 1

It's been 15 hours since we started this case.  It seems we still have a lot of work today before the 4pm deadline tomorrow.  I have no clue how we're going to manage.  We have ideas thrown all over the place, but there is no clear structure at all.

Going into this, I was feeling a little psyched and pretty confident because we had done pretty good on Round 1.  Now, I'm not so sure anymore.

So I've been cramped in that tiny room with five other people since 12pm.  Worked, worked and worked.  Ate my dinner while working at around 9pm.  Continued to work until 1:30am.  Drove home.  Made it back by 2:30am.

Currently...working on some forecasting and pro forma financial statements...and stuck. -_-''

Leaving for campus again in three hours.

Me and the Ladies. LOL

Two somewhat funny and awkward situations lately......

First....

So as I wrote before, last Friday I went cell phone shopping with a friend.  This person really is a little too friendly sometimes.  All the while we were walking around in the mall, she would constantly (1) hold my hand, (2) put her arm around mine, (3) put her arm around my waist, or (4) tug at the belt ring on my jeans. -_-''  想點呀妳?!?!  The funny part is that this is a married girl!

The other.....

Some time last week, I somehow managed to get myself into a difficult situation while we were forming groups for the next group project.  By default, I was supposed to be on one team.  But for other reasons, I was a little swayed to switch over to another group.  And so, there was a bit of a debate between two people as to where I belong.  -_-''  Both are my friends.  I didn't want to choose.  While all of this went on, a third person came and commented that she wanted to work with me also.  (But that was just a general comment and wasn't serious)

So today, I heard from a friend that while all of this was going on, my Jap male friend was slightly jealous and said to someone else, "How come all the young girls love NN so much?!"

LOL.  笑死我 !

詩與胡說

lol. How could I not talk about this today?!

My first impression of this song was that it has a very at17 style to it, and it also kind of sounds like the Free Love type songs. I have yet to figure out what exactly the lyrics mean.

Listening to the radio clip and watching BlogTV confirmed my thoughts. The song was written by Pan, who also wrote for at17. The song was arranged and (partly) produced by Ying C Foo, which would explain the similarity to hocc's earlier style. It was also kind of interesting to hear that the upcoming Mandarin album is kind of going to 'introduce' hocc to the mandarin-speaking world in a style more similar to her earlier years.  It'll be that more individualistic, rock, acoustic image.  That, I am definitely looking forward to!  As are all the other people that have been following since way back then.

While listening to the song just now, I had a little discovery.  If you listen carefully, the violin-like sound that comes in every now and then is actually a modification of the 光明會 theme.  Very typical hocc trick.  Just like how there was the 化蝶 theme in 勞斯萊斯.  Of course, not very many people ever notice it.

To come to think about it...I've been 'following' hocc for more than 8 years now. Wow.

Unfortunately, it's not as fun as it used to be. Partly because the whole scheme of things has changed. Partly because all the people that truly care are silent now. Partly because of personal reasons.

Hm.  I kind of miss the days when a bunch of us all across the world would be chatting and waiting for the HK radio release of the new songs.  The excitement was awesome.  And we had some real music discussions back then.  Doesn't happen anymore.

Anyhow....

The song....
Downloadable radio version

詩與胡說

作曲：pan
填詞：黃偉文
編曲：英師傅
監製：hocc@goomusic/英師傅

越花錢 口袋鈔票 越多
買一張飛毯 飛到波爾多
去看我 兩百歲 的外婆
和我 小時 養的 花豹 波波

她請我 喝香檳 告訴我
上星期開始 世界沒戰禍
而明年 我愛上 那一個
總留 最後 一片 蛋糕 給我

別理我 愛胡說 就胡說
你就不懂 詩是什麼
超聲波 曼陀羅
兩個東西 放在一起 有什麼 沒什麼
我怎麼知道
我還沒有試過

管他的 好結果 壞結果
我只負責 清心直說
是詩歌 是胡說
一開始的時候聽來 大概也 差不多
所~以別煩我

帶一把吉他 到處唱歌
幾千萬小孩 從此不捱餓
網路上 的沙發 沒人坐
因為 我們 找到 真的 快活

別理我 愛胡說 就胡說
你就不懂 詩是什麼
流行歌 蔡李佛
電光火石 碰出來的 是造作 是傑作
我怎麼知道
不過隨便說說

管他的 好結果 壞結果
我只負責 想到就說
是詩歌 是胡說
偉大夢想 最初聽來 大概也 差不多
你~就讓我說

聽~詩在胡說

Overnight

Really like this song, for some reason. I guess it's the idea of faith that really hits me. To some extent, faith is something I've really learned in the last few years. Sometimes, a little faith makes all the difference.

AMY GRANT feat. SARAH CHAPMAN - OVERNIGHT

So, you've handed in your resignation,
contemplatin' why nothin' turns out right.
A little fed up with all the disappointments,
so what's the point in wastin' any time?

It's only temporary, so what's your hurry?
No need to worry. Don't you know that,

(chorus)
If it all just happened overnight,
you wouldn't know how much it means?
Ye-ah
If it all just happened overnight,
you would never learn to believe
in what you cannot see,
oo-oh
what you cannot see.

I feel like pace is at a standstill.
Do I wait till it falls into my hands?
A long highway ahead, gettin' started.
Steady hearted, is what I think I am.

There's somethin' to be said for experience.
Who knows what's ahead. Keep on goin'.

Chorus

(Take it a day, a day at a time)
One foot in front of the other,
(Take it a day, a day at a time)
No need to hurry, hurry.
(Take it a day, a day at a time)
It won't happen over night.
It won't happen over night.

Have a little faith,
(Have a little faith)
Must appreciate,
(Must appreciate)
Every single day,
Don't give up, no.
2x

619 / 626

Yesterday was the annual New Talent singing competition...

I really have no interest in the competition. I didn't watch any of it at all.

But this year's performer was a good one.

Pong Nan. A very underrated HK artist. At least I think so. I believe it was Fish that introduced his music to me. I still remember chatting with Fish about his music, and her sending me video clips she took when he performed in Vancouver. From a technical perspective, Pong Nan is not a great singer. But it's precisely his imperfection and his voice that makes it sound so raw and so touching. I'd say he's the "boy next door" type of singer. But of course, he's also an awesome song writer and lyricist with a distinct style. There are some songs that you hear and just know was written by him.

One thing I did notice this year was the date. 619. It's been a "full round". If they pushed it back a week, it would have been on June 26th again. Just like in 2004.

2004 was the one and only year that I went to watch the competition. Only because the performer was hocc. The show was two days after my high school grad. Absolutely perfect. And watching hocc perform live for the very first time was, of course, mesmerizing! lol

But what else happened that night in 2004? Did we ever meet? Call it faith, or whatever. But a part of me still believes that our paths crossed for the first time that night.

Where are you now?

Lesser of all evils

One of the patients that came into the office today was the daughter of my boss' friend. She had recently gotten married and is now pregnant. It turns out the husband is Caucasian.

For some reason, when I saw this couple, something ran through my mind...

Some time ago, one of my family's friends was talking about interracial relationships. At some point in the conversation, this person had said that she'd rather her daughter be gay (les) than for her to marry a black guy.

A very discriminating statement in so many ways. But quite interesting.

I guess for a lot of Chinese parents, having their son or daughter marry a non-Chinese person is pretty hard to deal with. They're worried about the cultural differences, the lifestyle differences and the communication problems. This is understandable.

But to hear someone say that they'd rather their child be gay/les is really something new. So all those aforementioned problems are more important than the fact that your child has a same-sex partner?!

So for the parents...is it better that the child have a 'normal' relationship with someone that you can't communicate with? Or that the child have a same-sex relationship with someone that you can get to know and understand?

I wonder what my parents think about. Of course, they want the best of both worlds. They don't approve of K's infatuation with Korean guys. And they can't cope with me having a gf.

Hm.

What can I say?

Liability

Yesterday I went cell phone shopping with M.

The day before, M had dropped her cell phone on the ground and broke it. Because she doesn't have a land line, she was pretty desperate to go out and get a new phone. So, not having much to do yesterday afternoon, I drove her to the mall to find a new cell phone.

First stop was her current provider. Because the phone was already over a year old and was physically worn, they refused to replace the phone. With six months left in the contract, the only thing M could do was buy a new phone here, or cancel the contract, or continue to pay the fees.

M was not happy that the company would not replace or fix the phone. And she was quite upset that they couldn't help her extract the info and contacts from the broken phone. So she kept complaining to me about how bad that company's services were.

But I did not agree with her...

1) How can you expect the company to replace the phone when you dropped it on the ground a million times? Phones are not meant to be dropped and it's not the company's fault you dropped it on the ground.

2) Cancellation fees costly and are a pain. But you can't say that the company has bad service when you're the one that agreed to the terms of the contract, including the cancellation fees. If you don't like that, then you shouldn't have signed the contract at all.

Yes. We all hate the stupid networks for overcharging and what not. But before you start blaming their bad service, maybe you should take a bit of responsibility for your own actions!

6/18

Not in the mood to write a proper entry...

The basics for now....add the details later....

Handed in an assignment.
Class. Got the take-home test questions.
Lunch.  For J's bday.  Thai food.  Strawberry mocha cake.
Cellphone shopping with M.
Picked up K.
Smooth drive home.

To the Happiest Person

If only you were here to give me strength again...

If only I could feel the comfort of having you beside me again...

If only you knew...

='(

Sliding...

Sigh.

Three exams back.  And not one was decent.

I've lost count of how many times I've messed up in the last week.  At school.  At work.  Other things.

What am I doing wrong lately?!?!  How come nothing is turning out right?!?!

Feeling defeated.
Feeling weak.
Feeling lost.

Somewhere Sometime

THE Team

I want my team back.  THE team.  Me, M, R, S, K and Al.

It really doesn't get any better than this.

3 of the 6 of us were in the top 10% of the class.
We won case comp.
We won audit.

Now, we're split.

But...

The two teams that the six of us are on are tied for 1st place in the simulation game.

HA!

I want my team back!!!

Broke - Accepting Donations

Can you tell when I paid my tuition? -_-''

The funny part is...my tuition account currently shows a $10,000 CREDIT even though not all the payments have been transfered. I guess I get free education for a year?!

Picking up the pieces.

How did I end up doing the Nissan case?  Of all the possible companies, it had to be Nissan.

So while I read this case a million times, all I can think of is Nissan = Hippo.

Sigh.  I really wonder what happened to Hippo.

And it seems for this whole weekend I could not get rid of this thing.  Wrote my part on Friday and sent it off.  Got it back yesterday to merge it with Z's part.  Sent it off again.  Got it back today to do the edits.  Sent it off again.  Got back the powerpoint file.

Why is it that I always end up doing the tweaking?  Which takes forever because some people can't seem to do things properly?!

It is now 10:12pm.  I refuse to touch this thing again tonight.  Whatever it is I need to do can wait until tomorrow morning.  It's a waste of time for me to prep something that hasn't been finalized.

Professional

Going back to Thursday....the day when I realized I really messed up on something.....

For whatever reason, we were talking about credit cards....

MOM:  When your salary gets to $100k, you can give me a credit card to use.

ME:  haha...$100k.  Yea.  When I get there.

MOM:  A lot?  Don't look down on yourself.  After all, you are going to be a professional.

ME:  Hm.

Yes.  I do realize that I'm supposed to be on the path to be a professional.  If all goes as planned, a year from now, I'll have passed the CKE and in the process of doing SOA.

But with my epic failure that day, her use of the word "professional" seemed to carry a lot of weight.

All of a sudden, I'm not so sure I can do it anymore.

FIFA World Cup 2010

Today marked the opening of FIFA World Cup 2010.  It seems like everyone has already chosen their teams.  But why are people getting excited over the ties today?!

I guess I'm not quite as excited as a lot of the people around me.  I don't know anything about the teams or players, so I'm not gonna pick at this point.

But seeing all the hype around this reminds me of things.....

The first time I ever watched World Cup soccer was in 1990, twenty years ago, at the age of four.  I would assume that I really did not understand what was going on at that time.  The reason that I was watching it was because my grandfather was.  He was a big soccer fan and World Cup was a big thing for him.  So little old me sat down with him and enjoyed the excitement.

Twenty years later, he's no longer here.  Now that I think about it, next year will be the tenth year.

World Cup 1994 and 1998.  I don't have too much memory about it.  The only thing I remember is my mom and aunt betting on who would win the final match.

2002.  For some reason, I have absolutely no recollection of this whatsoever.

2006.  I didn't actually watch any of the games.  But X did.  In fact, quite a few times she accompanied me on my commute to the place where I volunteered at the time.  While I went to volunteer, she went to a nearby food court and watched the games to wait for me.  Other than that, no recollection.

2010.  I guess I'll be watching some games if time permits.

To be honest, I like watching sports.  But it seems that none of the people that I enjoy hanging out with like to watch.  I guess it's pretty hard to pull together a group to watch games when most of my friends are asian girls.

6/11

Today was professional designations day.  Of course, nobody from my class went.  Myself included.

Slept in for a bit.

Babysat for a while.  The little guy was really eager for me to play with him.  I took him down to the basement, thinking I could get some reading done while he played.  But once we got down there, he grabbed all his toys and dragged me over there with him!  How could I reject?

Went out to for my green tea latte.  Later joined by V.  Got most of my part for the operations case done.  Now, just waiting on other people to send me more info.  Pretty productive afternoon.  I think it works pretty good for me to have company that's doing something completely different.  Not alone, but also nobody to distract me.

Did the simulation with M and C after I got home.  We spent so much time planning based on what we heard from other groups.  But, it turns out that whoever gave us information had interpreted it incorrectly! -_-''  That kind of misled us.  Regardless, it's Round 4, and this time we have a profit!  Finally!

It is now 12:12am.  I've spent the whole evening trying to track down Z so that I could finish my part of the case.  No luck.  And now M is bugging me about it, but I am ignoring her, because I'm not sure what to do right now. =P  Seriously.  Relax.  Do you really think that I'm not gonna finish my part?  That's insane.

Not quite sure what I should be doing right now when I don't have all the information for the case.  I should probably do valuations.  I should probably study OB.  But it's friday night and I don't want to work!

Fall

I f**ked up.

*sigh*

Felt like sh*t for the whole day.  Really wanted to just go home and not talk to anyone, but ended up staying until 8:30pm to work on a case.

At times like this, I really miss having some TLC.

The Longest Four Hours

The continuation of my little catch-up...

Sunday...was a "scary" night.

K went back to Loo on Sunday. But forgot her laptop power cord. And of course, my parents insisted that they bring it to her at 10pm.

Just before they left, they asked to borrow my phone.

*heart attack*

What can I say? There is absolutely no excuse I can use to say no. (Even if there was some valid reason, the truth would somehow get twisted to really work against me.) So, I frantically deleted some more sensitive stuff off my phone and handed it over.

The next four hours seemed to last forever.

Having my phone in their hands is probably one of the worst possible things that can happen to me. After all, it was the sms on my phone that revealed my 'illicit affair'. There's no intimate sms messages anymore, but there are still some things that I'd rather they not see. After all, I haven't been completely honest about where I go, what I do, and who I'm with.

Yes. In some ways, I've been lying to them.

You can call me a liar if you want. You can question my honesty and integrity if you want. But there are some things in life that some people should not know about. The results can be disastrous.

First TSO

It was quite a long day at work on Saturday. Whoever booked the last appointment wrote the wrong thing! I expected to finish around 4pm, but ended up couldn't leave until 5pm.

After a long day of work...went to TSO with V.

I had never thought about going to TSO before V asked me. And no one around me has ever expressed any interest in going to the TSO. (Except, of course, X. But she "doesn't count" because she is just one of the most cultural people I've ever met in my life.) I've never really been a fan of classical music. The only time I would listen to this type of music is probably when I'm working. Most of the time I'm not even paying attention. It's just to have something in the background.

Being highly interested in watching people play instruments, I decided this was something I could try. So...2+ hours at the TSO, featuring Ingrid Fliter playing Chopin.

What can I say?! It was impressive. I love watching people play instruments, even if I don't fully 'understand' the music. And to see all the symphony instruments being played, and how co-ordinated and synchronized they are is just absolutely amazing. For someone like me who knows very little about the music, it simply sounded like CD quality. No flaws at all.

I really liked the sound of the double bass. It has a very unique sound. Low. Deep. Thick. And somewhat emotional, in a depressing kind of way. But that's what makes it so nice.

It's been a long time since I watched a live show. This was definitely worth me losing study time for the law midterm! LOL

Anyway

I've recently noticed that I now use ANYWAY and not ANYWAYS.

There was a time when someone got a little annoyed with me because I kept using ANYWAYS instead of ANYWAY. Of course, she was right. ANYWAYS is not a word. But I kept using it. Habit I guess. Hard to change.

Somewhere along the way I've made the change to the correct word.

I guess because I always remember that incident.

Anyway...This post is totally ridiculous and pointless to the rest of the world.

But I wrote it anyway, because it matters to me.

Case Comp #1

Last week, from Wednesday to Friday, was the first case comp of the term.

Going in to this, I was a little worried. Four of the people in the group were people that I had never worked with before. Knowing that these four people are quite opposite from me personality-wise, I wasn't so sure that things would run smoothly.

Wednesday:
To start off, four people were late. -_-''  Having four extremely loud people in the group was slightly overwhelming for me.  For most of the afternoon, we had some heated discussions (arguments?!) about how we were going to approach the case.  One person, T, really started to piss me off, because he would just cut people off and talk over them.  Luckily, we had N who was just as loud and somehow was able to take down T!  The day was pretty productive.  Except I really didn't think we should have gone out for dinner considering how pressed for time we were.  Ended up staying on campus until 1:30am.

Thursday:
Again, most people were late. -_-''  That really annoys me because I live the furthest away and I can manage to be on time.  So how come other people can't?!  Slapped together a powerpoint presentation just in time for the 4pm deadline.  It was quite funny because you see all 60+ people in our class running around like mad trying to finish everything.  It was quite intense for us because there were some technical problems just when we were about to submit.  I was assigned the accounting part for the presentation.  That worked out great for me because I am most confident in presenting that part.  The other finance stuff is just not my strength.  We ended up practicing the presentation until 12am.  It still wasn't quite up to par, but we all needed rest.  (Again we went out for dinner, along with people from some other groups.  I really wished we could have skipped that and saved 2 hours.)

Friday:
Presentation at 9:30am.  We were the third group.  I think the presentation was much better than any of our practice rounds.  As expected, Mr. V asked a lot of questions.  Unfortunately, it was all focused on a particular slide and resulted in one person answering all the questions.  That's not a good thing for us in terms of the teamwork marks, but I think we gave good answers.  Surprisingly, I.W. did not shoot any questions at my accounting part.  That was good, because, honestly, I felt there were some things that we should have discussed, but didn't.

Overall, I think everything worked out a lot better and easier than I expected.  Everyone was quite knowledgeable, and, luckily for us, both me and N were already quite familiar with what was going on in the industry.  Why? haha...because it was the pharmaceutical industry!

Good job, team!  Can't wait to find out the results.

Round 2 in two weeks.

(Side note:  I'm very grateful that quite a few people offered to let me spend the night at their place.  But in the end, I didn't accept any of the offers.  I guess after a day of being 'trapped' in the room with my group, I just really need some time alone, both to clear my mind and think about the case more clearly, and just to have some down time.  I know.  I'm not the most sociable person.)

Temp

So much to write about...

Case Comp...

TSO...

And the current 3 hours without my phone...f**k...

And some other issue that I'm starting to get really worried about.

Maybe tomorrow there will be some time to actually update.

Letting Go

Bored in class today, I checked my Google Reader and noticed that one of the blogs that I subscribe to had a new post. That blog hadn't been updated in quite a while, so I clicked over to check it out.

Sadly, that post contained closing remarks. The owner, C, was closing the blog. The reason? The end of a relationship. In the post was the lyrics to hocc's 願我可以學會放低你, and the reason why this song is/was significant to C.

Seeing this blog post kind of made me sad. Partly because of C's relationship ending. Partly because it reminded me of things in my own life.

I don't actually know the C. She is one of the hocc fans that I came to know online through the various forums and websites. At one point, we probably chat on msn too. But since then, I never kept in touch with this person. Through various ways, I've come to know about her relationship with F, another hocc fan. Every now and then, I used to see the pictures they posted of their matching accessories and what not. For some reason, despite the fact that I never actually met these two people, finding out that they broke up made me sad. And to close it off with 願我可以學會放低你 made it extra sad.

And then I think about my own stuff...

Like them, the reason I met X was because of the hocc forums. Like C, 願我可以學會放低你 has a certain significance to me. Like C, when things 'ended' with X, I felt the need to close the blog that I 'shared' with X.

願我可以學會放低你 was released and first played on the radio (in HK) on April 21, 2006. Aside from that being a special day for me, that was exactly a month after the day everything in my life started falling apart. The irony of it all was unbelievable. I can still remember laughing about it with X. -_-''

And...I can still remember, almost a year later, seeing the words "願我可以學會放低你" on X's blog.

If there was ever anything that X ever said/did that really hurt, it was this.