Letting Go

Bored in class today, I checked my Google Reader and noticed that one of the blogs that I subscribe to had a new post. That blog hadn't been updated in quite a while, so I clicked over to check it out.

Sadly, that post contained closing remarks. The owner, C, was closing the blog. The reason? The end of a relationship. In the post was the lyrics to hocc's 願我可以學會放低你, and the reason why this song is/was significant to C.

Seeing this blog post kind of made me sad. Partly because of C's relationship ending. Partly because it reminded me of things in my own life.

I don't actually know the C. She is one of the hocc fans that I came to know online through the various forums and websites. At one point, we probably chat on msn too. But since then, I never kept in touch with this person. Through various ways, I've come to know about her relationship with F, another hocc fan. Every now and then, I used to see the pictures they posted of their matching accessories and what not. For some reason, despite the fact that I never actually met these two people, finding out that they broke up made me sad. And to close it off with 願我可以學會放低你 made it extra sad.

And then I think about my own stuff...

Like them, the reason I met X was because of the hocc forums. Like C, 願我可以學會放低你 has a certain significance to me. Like C, when things 'ended' with X, I felt the need to close the blog that I 'shared' with X.

願我可以學會放低你 was released and first played on the radio (in HK) on April 21, 2006. Aside from that being a special day for me, that was exactly a month after the day everything in my life started falling apart. The irony of it all was unbelievable. I can still remember laughing about it with X. -_-''

And...I can still remember, almost a year later, seeing the words "願我可以學會放低你" on X's blog.

If there was ever anything that X ever said/did that really hurt, it was this.