The Results - Part I

For whatever reason, I couldn't sleep last night.  Woke up at around 5am, and then slept a bit on and off until getting up at 7am.  Was it because I was nervous?  I don't know.

The morning seemed really long.  I kept looking at the clock, but time seemed to pass by really slowly.  By 9:30am, a bunch of people started texting me, because everybody was getting so anxious.  At 9:55am, one particular person, literally, sent me a message every minute, counting down the time.  I also found out that the employers already had the results at 9am, but we had to wait until 10am.  There I was, sitting at my seat at work, clicking the refresh button every minute.  Yes, this is how nerve-wrecking the whole process is.

10AM.  The first page had a bit of info.  820 people passed the exam.  Overall, the results were better than the previous sitting in May.  That part was a little disturbing, because if the overall results are better, that means you need to do better to pass.  Scrolled through the list of people that passed.  Thankfully, my name was there.  The detailed results should be on its way in the mail.

The 'funny' thing is a lot of people must be wondering if I passed or not, because they wouldn't have found my name on the list, since it's not under the name I usually use.  And yes, the list is publicly available, meaning the whole world knows who passed and who didn't.  I looked through the list and the people that I hang out with most all passed.  But I can think of one or two people whose names weren't there.

Of course, the most common status on fb today was "PASSED!!!".  I guess it's great to share the good news with all your friends.  But thinking about the few people that didn't pass, I really didn't think it was that appropriate.  We all struggled through this together, it's great that I'm moving forward, but I hate to see other people being 'left behind'.  In the end, they are my friends and classmates.  I sincerely hope that we all make it through.

As before the exam, I was a little disappointed at my family's reaction.  I called home and told them the results, but they really didn't seem that interested.  Coincidentally, someone from HK called tonight and remembered I had previously written this exam.  When I told her I passed, someone in my house said, "It's only the first one", as if it meant nothing.  *sigh*  Sometimes I really wonder why I am going through all this.  In the end, what is it worth?

1/3 of the way there.

Part 2 begins.  And this time, only half of us will make it.