The End of 'School'

The end of an 'important' three weeks. 'Important' because it is a crucial part of this process, but, otherwise, not all that useful.

What I take away from these three weeks...

Academically or professionally:
(1) I know very very little.
(2) Still not sure what my chances are.
(3) There should be a lot of interesting career opportunities.
(4) 'We' are very well respected people.
(5) There is a really high level of responsibility involved with this.

Personally:
(1) I still don't know why I'm here.
(2) I'm probably not working hard enough.
(3) I'm not interested in money or status.
(4) There are some ppl that really piss me off.
(5) That girl at my table...

One of my instructors this week asked two questions...

Day 1, he asked, "Why are you here?" Answers ranged from challenges, to job security, to money, to I don't know. Having to say something that hadn't already been said, I said 'career'. But quite honestly, I know quite well that there are many things that are much more important to me than a career. In fact, I would give up a career in exchange for other things that I care about.

Today, the last day, he asked, "What would you do if you weren't here?" Answers ranged from athletes, to teachers, to chefs. My answer was pharmaceuticals, because that is the most likely reality. In my mind, that brings back the question of business vs science again. But perhaps, neither of those are what I really want.

Life has been too tiring these past couple of years. A lot of losses. A lot of sadness. A lot of pain. I don't care much for a career, or money, or status. All I really want is a simple life with the right person, because I firmly believe that there is nothing more important than this.

Four days left...