Two years ago, when I started this program, I told myself that I would invite a certain person to my convocation. There's probably less than four months left, but I have no idea how I could possibly do this.
I could send out the ticket and the message would be understood. But judging from my last attempt just months ago, and the disappearance of a certain site, that would never be enough.
All of these years, I've never attempted to pick up the phone and call. I hate myself for having forgotten that phone number that was once dedicated to me. I'm not sure if it's because I'm afraid of the possibility of starting another disaster, or if it's because I'm afraid of being rejected. What would happen if I really did call? Would that convince my guest to come? Would that bring about a change of heart?
If I really could convince my guest to come, what would happen then? All the different parts of my life that I have kept separate would all of a sudden collide and clash. All I can picture is everything falling apart all over again.
What should I do?
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