Nothing to Fear

Am I scared?

I don't really know.

The first time I read through the articles last week, perhaps it was a bit freaky. A lot of the symptoms do seem to match. And the not-so-fancy name is enough to scare anyone.

Autosomal dominant. I have enough bio knowledge to know what that means without looking it up. If she has it, then there's at least a 50% chance that I do too. Based on my own knowledge of my own body, I wouldn't be surprised if it turned out positive.

I think I've already convinced myself that it doesn't matter. If anything, all that has happened is we've put a name to a condition that has existed all my life. It doesn't really change anything.

Is there a problem? Yes.
Can you do anything about it? No.
Then don't worry.

But I know she's worried, and she's scared. I really don't know what I can say.

In the end, it all still has to be confirmed.

X used to always say/joke that maybe she wouldn't be around the next day. 原來呢句說話應該係我講。Who knows? Maybe something will happen tonight and I won't be around anymore tomorrow.