One Step Back

The other day I had planned to take a second step, because that seemed like the most appropriate thing to do considering what I had said before.

Instead of hanging out the entire day, I planned to leave early so that there would still be time for me to do my stuff and have some time for whatever followed, if anything.

But it didn't work out quite that way.

I made a new friend that day. While chatting over lunch, she mentioned that she was having friends over at her house for drinks that night.

One of them was a paramedic.

At that point, I didn't know how to react. After all, there can't be that many 30-something chinese, female, les paramedics in the city. There must be a pretty good chance that it's the same person. The thought of that made my head spin.

I had the urge to ask for details. Does this new friend that I've made know X? If so, then what does this person know about me?

But at the same time, I wanted to avoid it altogether. Perhaps it would be easier for me if I just didn't know at all.

Naturally, this continued to bug me for the rest of the day. The possibility of calling someone (and saying a lot of personal things) who would then go on to see a brand new person that I had just spent the day with was a little overwhelming.

So...

I took it down a notch.

Perhaps...the bits and pieces are up in the air.