I knew you wouldn't come. I guess I didn't expect you to. But I still tried.
I was a little bolder this time. I chose a place close by. Walkable distance. I guess a part of me did really hope...
For whatever reason, a part of me had the gut feeling that maybe you would show up. And hence, I actually made an effort to do something more, to finish something I started a long time ago.
People came in and out of the coffee shop, but none of them was you. I waited as long as I could, but no sign of you. If I could, I would have wrote "不見不散", but circumstances make that impossible.
At some point, I had the urge to take a bolder step and barge in on you, but I decided against that. Would that be a wise or stupid move? Would it show you that I'm for real? Or would it anger you even more?
It's not the first time. I'm used to it.
I took a nice long drive on a familiar route. Music up. Windows down. The freedom gives me a rush, but the silence makes my mind and heart run away with thoughts of you.
Perhaps I'll have better luck next time...
Perhaps one of these days I'll finally give up...
What to do with my customized monkey? It's dangerous to keep it around me, but I can't possibly get rid of him.
This is not how it was supposed to work.
*sigh*
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