Respect...that's all I want.

I'm no angel, nor do I dare to call myself a good person, but I can honestly say that I genuinely care for the people around me, whether they know it or not.

I care because they are people important to me, because they are good people.  I do what I can to be helpful because I want to ease their loads and make their lives a little easier, in whatever way possible.

A little bit of kindness can go a long way and can change lives.  If there's anyone that knows this, it's me.  Because I've experienced it.

I don't want anything in return.  That was never and never will be my motive.

All I ask for...is a little respect.

You don't need to appreciate what I do.  You don't need to say thank you.  But, at least, you don't need twist my intentions around and trash me.

I do what I do because I believe it's the right thing to do.  You can think otherwise, you can accuse me of anything you want, but that doesn't make it true.

It's not that I have secrets.  It's just you're unwilling to listen.
It's not that I want to go.  It's just you won't let me stay.
It's not that I don't care.  It's just you won't let me care.

It doesn't have to be like this, but nobody will ever give in.

You can have your opinion, but I can also have mine.

We've gone through this before, and each time, the result is the same.  We're getting nowhere.  And we never will.

But if I can't even get a little bit of respect, then what the hell am I doing?  Why should I care and make sacrifices for someone and, in return, be accused and condemned for things that are not true?  If that's the way I'm going to be treated, then I mind as well go and do all the "forbidden" things that will me happy and just forget about what anyone thinks, because there won't be a difference.

But guess what?  I can't.  Because I f**king care.  Because I can't bring myself to not care how the people around me feel.  Because I'd rather be the one who suffers, then to "destroy" everyone else's life.

Although...I really don't understand how what I want can be so "destructive".

This is...all...one big disaster waiting to happen.