Found

I've been sitting here all night, thinking about something stupid and selfish that I'm potentially going to do.  But before I make a decision, I couldn't help but try to find some more clues.

I meant to go to the tree hole.  While there, I noticed a repeating phrase in the tree hole.  I took the phrase and googled it...

And found another tree hole.

The phrase I searched...
The address...
The content...
The language...
The writing style...

I know, for sure, that this is the clue that I've been looking for.

It doesn't tell me as much as I'd like to know, but I guess it's better than nothing.  I read the little that's there over and over and over again, not entirely sure how to interpret it.  As always, what's there is deep, but never fully comprehensible to someone that doesn't know.

But...I think I do know...

And it kills me.