Lose-Lose-Lose

The more I think about what happened over the weekend, the more I realize I need to do something.  If I don't take advantage of this opportunity, one day, I'll regret it.  (As if I don't regret it already...)

Each and every time I'm faced with the same questions...

How do I make it work?  How do I make it better?

Perhaps I'm setting out to do something selfish again.

If it fails completely, I disappoint myself for the millionth time.  No big deal.  I'm used to it by now.  A little more pain and a little less hope.

If it goes the wrong way, I start World War III, and wreck havoc in everyone's lives (again).

If it goes the right way, I start another extremely dangerous game of hide and seek (again) and walk into a big unknown.

In some ways, it's a lose-lose-lose situation.  I can never win.

But if it goes right, perhaps I can start living again.

And that one tiny chance, however small it may be, is worth it.