In the end, just like every other time, there was no result.
Have my words been lost in space and time?
Or trashed without a chance?
Or simply not worth it?
More extreme measures? A part of me wants to say f**k it and go ahead, and this would have been the perfect chance. At least, today, I'd have one less thing to worry about. But how could I?
What can I do except walk away empty handed, once again?
Disappointed? Very deep down. But after all this time, I can now (at least superficially) walk away without feeling anything. I can walk away and go on with my day as if nothing has happened.
Because nothing has happened.
I've revealed my knowledge of the tree hole. A part of me had thought that maybe there would be something there today, but nothing. Now that I've shown myself, the tree hole will become useless again, just like the ones before. That means I've lost my last connection again.
Perhaps I really don't understand.
Perhaps I'm believing things that really aren't worth believing.
Perhaps words are nothing more than words.
Perhaps there really is nothing in this world that I can place my faith and trust in.
Perhaps...I'm really nothing more than an unwanted shadow of the past.
More extreme measures? A part of me wants to say f**k it and go ahead, and this would have been the perfect chance. At least, today, I'd have one less thing to worry about. But how could I?
What can I do except walk away empty handed, once again?
Disappointed? Very deep down. But after all this time, I can now (at least superficially) walk away without feeling anything. I can walk away and go on with my day as if nothing has happened.
Because nothing has happened.
I've revealed my knowledge of the tree hole. A part of me had thought that maybe there would be something there today, but nothing. Now that I've shown myself, the tree hole will become useless again, just like the ones before. That means I've lost my last connection again.
Perhaps I really don't understand.
Perhaps I'm believing things that really aren't worth believing.
Perhaps words are nothing more than words.
Perhaps there really is nothing in this world that I can place my faith and trust in.
Perhaps...I'm really nothing more than an unwanted shadow of the past.
