It's been a long time since I've done an overnight trip with friends. Perhaps too long. After all, a trip with friends is very different from a trip with family, even when you're going to the same place.
To me, the destination was not all that interesting. After all, I've probably been there almost ten times already. For me, the incentive is getting away from town, away from rules and restrictions, and having a good time with good friends. What we actually do is not that important.
It's hard to find people to travel with. Meeting up and hanging out for a few hours is one thing. Spending days together and sharing living space is quite another. You quickly learn a lot about people that you didn't know before. Precisely because of this, there have been times in the past when I've rejected people's invitations to travel. Some people I can be friends with and hang out with, but I know they would drive me crazy if I had to be with them day in and day out.
For me, the combination of people on this trip works. One is the person who probably currently knows more about my personal life than anyone else. The other is the person that I've studied and worked with through all the stressful times. If there's people that I'm relatively comfortable with, it would be them. Interestingly, the me that these two people know are probably very very different, simply because each has known me through very different settings, through different parts of my life.
I'm not used to merging the different compartments of my life. Different compartments have different types of people and I know, for a fact, that not everyone would get along. I really don't need any additional stress and drama. As the middle person, it's usually hard to make things work and, in a way, keep everyone happy.
For me, the combination of people on this trip works. One is the person who probably currently knows more about my personal life than anyone else. The other is the person that I've studied and worked with through all the stressful times. If there's people that I'm relatively comfortable with, it would be them. Interestingly, the me that these two people know are probably very very different, simply because each has known me through very different settings, through different parts of my life.
I'm not used to merging the different compartments of my life. Different compartments have different types of people and I know, for a fact, that not everyone would get along. I really don't need any additional stress and drama. As the middle person, it's usually hard to make things work and, in a way, keep everyone happy.
Would I do this again? Maybe. Perhaps, in the last little while, I've gotten to know some people better. In light of that, perhaps the way I connect and interact with them will change.
This is me, or the paranoid child inside of me, trying to grasp the relationships I have with the people around me. If there's something I'm bad at, it would be maintaining relationships (of every kind). Sometimes, there's just a need to step back and see what's going on.
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