Distance

When I read this, I remembered something that someone had once said to me,

"我同你之間唔使咁客氣"

I knew what it meant.

We're close.  We're tight.  Our relationship is deeper than that.  No need to sweat the small things.

Or.  Actually.  It meant a lot more than that.

Whether I showed it or not, I understood that part too.

When I read this, I remembered writing a card to someone.  It was probably the first time that I deliberately bought a card for anyone.  Unfortunately, she was not entirely impressed by what I wrote.  Her comments were that given our relationship, what I wrote was "too distant" and "not enough".

That is, perhaps, one of my greatest regrets.  After all, I never officially got the chance to do it again.  My one chance, at a very important time, and I f**ked it up.

It's hard to judge what's too little and what's too much.  Perhaps I was a little behind at that point in time.  Perhaps I was still a little hesitant to take things any further.  Perhaps I lacked the courage to do more.