Broken Glass in the Sand

As I looked at the date the other night, out of desperation, I searched for something.

I've done this so many times already.  I never really expect to find anything, because 99% of the time nothing has ever shown up.  For the most part, I know that some things don't want to be found.  They are purposely out of (my) sight, not meant to be found.

But there is one thing that always gives it away.

And I'm taking advantage of it.

This time I got a hit.

How is it that it's taken me so long?

Forgive me for taking advantage of the loophole, but this is all I have left.  This is the only way for me to know.

But the things I see are killing me.

It's been too long.  It's like I don't know anything anymore.  I'm not quite sure what all the references are.  I'm not quite sure if I'm interpreting the right things.  Am I reading into it too much?

But there are some things that I can clearly see...

The pain.
The sorrow.

This is not the way it's supposed to be.
This is not what I wagered for.

This is what I never want to see.

Please...

Let me sit with you for a while.