Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Officially Professional

It's been a long journey.

Two years of full-time school.
Three insanely stressful exams.
Three years of working on the job.

Today marks the end of the beginning.

Today I'm officially professional - with an extra five letters after my name.

I'm not sure what that means.

Statistically, less than 1% of the population in the province has the qualifications that I do.  I guess that's supposed to be significant.  I guess that has value.  I guess that's something to be proud of.

But I haven't bothered to tell anyone except the few people that "must" know.  It seems they are more excited than I am.

Years ago, when things were going downhill and I felt defeated, I received a gift.  A friend gave me something that she had originally bought for herself.  She gave it to me because she believed that I would be able to fulfill the dream that it carried.  This person had tremendous faith in me when I didn't.  This person gave me the strength and courage to continue on.  This person, whether she knows it or not, motivated me to be a better person.

I'm sorry, my dear friend.  I've failed you (yet again).  I did not fulfill that dream.  I did not take that path.  Perhaps it was too difficult, mentally and emotionally.  Perhaps, in your words, I didn't want it bad enough.  Perhaps, I just didn't try hard enough.

Today, I've reached a different destination.  You were not by my side while I made this journey, but deep down inside, you were my greatest source of strength.  You were the reason I can tell myself that I'm going to make it.  You were, in part, the reason I need to "win".

If only you could be here at the finish line.

If only you could be proud of me.

CPA, CA

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