3/28

I always loved the confident, adventurous dreamer that you are.  The way you talked about your callings inspired me and gave me hope.  I'm not sure where it is that you're headed now, but I have faith that you will reach your destination.

Wherever it is you're headed, I hope that on nights when you need a little light, that you will still look up to the night sky full of stars and still be drawn to that one star that shines brightly for you, always.

I wish you another year of health, happiness and love...as I have for many years.

Health...because the things you once told me have left me with unanswered questions.  I always worry about your health.

Happiness...because you are "the happiest person".  You give and give and give, and hardly ever show your fragile side.  But I know it's there.  There's nothing I want more than for you to be happy.

Love...because you have a big heart, and love like nobody else I've ever known.  You deserve so much more.

Love...because...[.............].

Happy birthday, my dear friend.

If only I(you) could give you(me) a long long hug......

3/23

Could we ever meet?

Harolding

While browsing my FB feed, I came across this link:

The Top 10 Places to Take a Walk in Toronto

Although the opportunities seem rare, I like taking walks.  Whether it's walking alone to enjoy my freedom, to have some time to think, or just to explore the area.

What's even better is taking a walk with the right person.  Having company is good, but it has to be the right type, which is hard to find.  It's nice to have someone to walk with, but I might not want to talk.  Just be there with me.  The problem is there's only ever been one person that I could walk with in silence and not feel awkward.

Something else in that article got my attention.  One of the places listed is Mount Pleasant Cemetery.  It's kind of surprising that it would be listed as a nice place to walk.  After all, it is a cemetery.  Most people would never do it.

Many years ago, someone had asked me to take a walk in Mount Pleasant Cemetery.  At the time, I thought it was very odd.  We never did go.  We opted for a park instead.

I get it now.

Let's go for a walk...
In silence...
In a cemetery.

A walk that I could only ever take with you.

If only you knew...

3/21

I hate that this day always reminds me of the storm.

I hate that this same day is also always my deadline to throw my paper airplanes.

I hate myself for still being in this state.

Now what?

Throw it all away?
Keep on marching?

I just don't know.

The Three P's

Finally remember what the last P word is...

Poet.
Prophet.
Priest.

Seriously?

衝上雲霄

Never really had any intention of watching this after hearing a lot of bad reviews.  But the chance came up and so it happened.

As a movie, I would have to agree that this was no good.  It really has no relation to the TV series except for the few characters.  But even the characters are not quite realistic to the TV series.  Jumping back and forth between the mostly unrelated characters' stories was almost annoying and made the whole movie just seem broken.  The stories, themselves, were pretty typical and really had nothing particularly interesting.

But, having said that, there are a few things in there that I liked.

The scenery.  I'm a sucker for beautiful scenery.  Whether it's nature or cityscapes, it's one of the things I love most about traveling.  Taking in the scenery.  With the movie mostly set in the UK, one of the places at the top of my list, it brought up a lot of thoughts and questions in my mind.

The cinematography.  Coupled with beautiful scenery has to be cinematography.  Basically exactly why I've always had a love for photography.  How do you capture the moment and the feeling?  Close up?  Far away?  Filters?  Hard to do, but I think they've done a good job here.

The soundtrack.  I'm sure the theme song is a winner for everyone.  Eason's song is the rightful song that everyone expects with this TV series and movie.  There really was no other choice.  But that is not the part I liked.  It's the entire soundtrack.  Whether it's the background music, or the songs thrown into various scenes or Sammi's performance of "Over the Rainbow".  I liked them.  No surprise on this though, because a glance at the credits showed names of many musicians that I know and love.  Hopefully they have an OST for this.

Spiritual Connection

Saw someone post this the other day...

HOW TO KNOW IF YOU’RE IN A SPIRITUAL PARTNERSHIP

Reading into it, it really got to me.

"Spiritual Partnerships are about the feeling.  The way that you feel when you're in their presence, and the connection that you have simply radiates between each other with awareness.  You begin to know what each other are thinking and feeling, and so there's a deeper communication happening between the two of you because you're communicating on a frequency that is beyond words.  It is mental, it is emotional, and it is full of knowing."

In some ways, that describes everything that I've never been able to put into words.  Perhaps it's strange, or even stupid, to some people, but I firmly believe that it's possible.

Perhaps it's something you have to experience to know.

That person who you can sit in silence with.
That person whose mere presence makes you feel calm.
That person who you can fall asleep with.
That person who knows how you feel just from touching you.
That person who can read the diary that you never wrote.

There's nothing quite like it.

How could I possibly let go of that?

Cold Cold Winter

Two weeks have flown by....

I pursued my "illicit affair".
I poured my heart out.
I did things I would never do for anyone else.

But I failed.

I know I haven't fixed everything.

I know it wasn't and isn't enough.

I know I'm still not who I need to be.

But I mean everything I say.

I went places.
I drove to the middle of nowhere.
I walked in the blistering cold.

But I can never get close enough.

Time has run out.

My little friend has gone back into hiding.
The flowers he had have wilted.
His master never came for him.

It hurts...perhaps more so this time than any other.