For the first time in who knows how long, I went to church today. Willingly? Not entirely. Forced? Not exactly, either. There was an easy excuse I could have used to get out of it, but I didn't.
There are some aspects of church, mass and worship that I don't fully comprehend. Faith is something that comes from inside. All of this, to me, in a sense, is superficial. I don't care much for it.
Faith, if I can call it that, I do have.
It's been too long. I've almost forgotten what a mass is like. A part of me wanted to go and "feel" it. A part of me was hoping it would help me find some answers and understand something. But I know it's not that simple.
To be fair, the homily was quite enjoyable. The priest doing it was a younger guy who was very energetic and spoke in a pretty casual and modern tone. It's always much easier to actually pay attention when it's like that.
What is it that I don't understand? What is it that people are trying to achieve when they devote themselves to the church?
Perhaps I'm looking in the wrong place.
