2202

Out of curiosity during my condo research, I looked at some real estate stats for a certain building.  Of course, it linked to units that were for sale.

Of the 261 units in the building, which one is for sale?

2202

Affordable too.

What would you (and you) think of that?

I think they'd all kill me.

Burn

It was a public place.  A place that people may go with friends or parents would bring their kids.  I'm not sure why this was the location.  We've never been there before.

I'm not sure why I was there, but somehow I ran into you.  You were with two other people.  Their faces seem familiar, but I'm not sure who they are.  The three of you were laughing and joking around.  You seemed so different from the person I once knew.

I approached you.  You spoke to me, but almost in a mocking tone.  I asked to speak to you privately.  You did not accept but also did not refuse.  The three of you continued your journey and I followed, although you half ignored me.

Finally, you stopped and spoke to me.  You made me a deal.  You gave me a date, time and place.

I waited and waited and waited, but you didn't show up.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

And I woke up.

Every now and then, you appear in my dreams.  More often than not, the ending was a good one, even if it left me confused.  This was the first time that it was so negative.

It's almost a full circle...

Perhaps...my time really is running out...

Benefits not included

By definition, volunteering means you freely offer to do something with no expectation of getting anything in return.  It amazes me that someone would ask, "What's the benefit? Why do you want to do it if there's no benefit?"

There's no benefit.  That's not the purpose.  That's not my purpose.  I'm not trying to get anything out of it.  I just want to do something for a cause that I feel strongly for, because I've seen people around me struggle over the very same things.

Does everything have to revolve around a gain of some sort?  Can we not want to do things just because?  Is it crazy to do something solely for the sake of someone else's benefit?

Every now and then there are moments that make me re-evaluate my views of the things and people around me.

This was one of them.

When...

When people give you sh*t for something that really isn't your problem...

When people make suggestions and give you sh*t for not taking them...

When you've worked endless hours and it still doesn't end...

When the world thinks you're free now so you should help them...

When you can't catch a break even when you're drowning...

When you know a problem is ahead...

When you're being pushed into making a decision that will cause chaos...

When you no longer want to share your accomplishments because all of the above tells you nobody really cares...

When all you really want is some peace and quiet...

When all you really want is to be elsewhere...

Something I read recently talked about depression causing physical pain vs physical pain causing depression.  I don't know.  Not sure it matters.  All I know is that it's a vicious cycle.

Just another day...