Call me stupid, but I've always had a fascination with Ellen Loo. Perhaps because she's the same age as me. Perhaps because of something that I once heard.
In the past, I would never have shelled out the money to buy this book. I guess you can say I can afford to now, but it's what's in the book that I was interested in. Months ago it was revealed that Ellen was struggling with bipolar disorder and has gone through some rough times. Perhaps, in some ways, this is a glimpse into something that I struggle to understand in my own life.
I'm not an avid reader. I cannot judge whether or not Ellen's book was well written. I really don't care about that. What I'm interested in is what was she thinking and feeling during those dark times in her life?
It was hard to read.
How could this talented young woman whose music I've grown to love have such a dark side? She always seemed so innocent and cheerful, but behind the scenes she was struggling to the point of hurting herself. From the hand-holding backstage amidst all the glamour, to gestures from a friend that probably saved her life. It was all so excruciating to read.
Perhaps the question for myself is...
Where do I fall along this spectrum?
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