The Last Step

I knew this was coming.  But I did not expect it to come so fast.

To be put on the spot in the middle of the night when I was starting to doze off was not exactly what I had in mind.  Writing is good, but perhaps not for this.  Or maybe it's best that it happened this way.

For the first time in a long long time, I threw a lot of things out there.

For the first time in a long long time, I was getting the right responses.

Something was right.

I have my fears.  Nobody should have to face the darkness.

But everything I said was refuted.  No was not an acceptable answer.

Mentally, no was the correct answer.
Emotionally, yes was the correct answer.

All of a sudden, everything has been put into question.

Is this a step I should be taking?

Or..maybe it's too late.

Hints

What in the world have I just done?

It seems that my intention of simply clearing some numbers and reconnecting in a real way turned into something else.

I see you.
I hear you.
I know what you're getting at.

But I don't know if I can do it.

Don't get too close.
I don't want to have to push you away.